Sick and dizzy

Today, went to sch.. reached there early. But on the way i felt so sick that i wanted to vomit.. and during the 4 hours of tutorial and lectures, i felt so sick and whenever i rolled my eyes, i felt so dizzy.. and wanted to vomit. So.. i decided to rest(meaning sleeping during lectures) becos, in the afternoon there is gonna be a quiz. I dont want to misperform due to my sickness. So after the rest, and lunch with ShaoQi, i went to the lab and have a last minute revision with Wilson. But then, i felt so sick and warm(fever coming..) that i couldnt read on. and felt my head being very heavy. But luckily, my quiz is quite alright. Of cos, there r some regrets(cos i didnt study some stuffs, and made careless mistakes, and that my sickness made me very drowsy and blur during the quiz) But it was a blessing in disguise though.. At least i manage to get through in such bad situations.
Oh yah.. Liverpool drew Chelsea. But i felt Liverpool should have won. Cos the replays showed Chelsea committing fouls which could lead to penalties, but the referee was just not alert to spot those mistakes. Lousy refereeing.
ok lah, dunt sue me for this ok.. i dun mean malicious intent.

Expectation E(X)

R our lives just mainly functioning to meet others' expectations of us? Sick of that.. But no choice. Society is like that.NO CHOICE. No choice is sometimes good.. as it doesnt leave us with the dilenma to choose. But i dont like Lack Of Choice in this situation. I am suffocating..

I am wondering why is it so hard for one to find another whom he/she likes. Even if they r together now, they will still question over many disparities between them. Why cant things just be simple and nice. Just like a piece of jigsaw with another piece. If they dont fit, they will never fit. But if they fit, they will never split again. Sigh.. Love/life is so complicated. And some said that love is like similitudes, cannot be measured (by units). that "some" is me lah..

Just now played minesweeper wif wilson. kept my promise man. haha, and not bad.. we 2 r smart people. lol. though luck is important, i found that in that game, when to be risk taking or risk adverse, when to be cunning, when to be conservative is important. Alertness is a must, and one cannot put down his guard though he is leading, cos miracles do happen. Miracles happen when one situation seems tough to be achieved, but yet it is achieved through that small possibility. See, we r all miracles. Cos, we won in the Million-people-swim before we were born. One in a million sia. We r all the worthy champions. so, even if some others look down on us, we shld at least not look down on ourselves. Where had ur fighting spirit in that swim dissipated to? Sometimes it is easy to say such words as above.. to be very optimistic in that very second, but again, for me, that moment is fast lost. Why cant that optimism last longer? At least i would be happier. Happiness is so hard to achieve. Money of cos can buy happiness, but sometimes, when u had too much money, the joy of getting richer becomes plainer.. and one day, having more money would mean zero increment in joy. That is when u can become a monk/nun bah.. cos u kan4 po4 hong2 cen2 le.
I am thinking of finding work during this hols. but i am going to malaysia with mom. and also got this callup.. and my ippt.. that short month shld be a jobless month for me.. i dun realli want to do work during hols. Onli when i feel rotting away, then i yearn for work. cos i am not afraid that i cant get enough of working life. I had ard 40 years ahead for me to work and slog, so i just cant be bothered to work. haha, that is certainly not being lazy. That is just another perspective. Not trying to find excuses, just being plain straight here. Ok, tutorial time.. i want to complete the last question at least.. fun time passed so fast. My weekend is almost gone. Sian. Ok, be optimistic for a moment. Yeah! Sch is starting soon, yeah, the quiz is coming. Meaning that it will be over soon.

The unfateful day in September

Ok, due to some enquires, i will elaborate on yesterday and today.
U see, my bball gang is a kaypoh gang. We see ramee(la4 mei4)--code words together and will want to know the lastest gossip within our gang. A gang with thrived for 6 plus years.. with new people joining.. and also old guys leaving. But then, the spirit of the gang is always here. cos we have the most regular person ard, that is Hang Kuang. Today we chatted abt the Xmas card. Imagine, if i never sent him that in my Sec3/4, then he will not come to TPJC and form with the pioneers of this gang the what-is-used-to-call Toon Squad. Stupid name by Weian ... haha.

And yah, fate lar.. so today, ok hmm.. i shall talk abt yesterday first. After leaving sch, i met JunTing at TM at 915pm. and he said he was very sian.. so i pei pei him to take a stroll down the shopping lanes. So qiao, met Joanna and Shimin at MRT. and we even took the same train, just that we didnt met one another. I was with JiaHui on the way back.
And so, the coolest Ah Meng in sg and me went to Ntuc and some other shops to get some stuffs. After which, he insisted to find his friend, whom i highly suspect is someone he likes.. but he keep insisting that he wants to introduce her to me.. want to use me as an excuse to go to see her.. He told me he specially came to TM to walk ard with me.. haha.. as if i am one with IQ=-ve. Of cos the aim is to see her lah.. then even use that lousy excuse.. didnt even tell the girl my name lor.. what kind of introduction is that? haha.. but so unlucky.. Isetan, where the girl is working, is closing in 5 mins time when he got there. so the girl shooed him away.. haha.. so ke lian right, and in the end, we went to walk ard. and he wanted to meet her after her work, but she went home straight.. and so we waited for nothing there. wanted to chase after her, but yet didnt dare to .. hai.. haha, that is what i guessed. maybe he realli just want to intro me to her. cannot anyhow say out his intention. Btw, the girl is not bad looking .. so i gained more than i lose. lol.
And so the myth behind me meeting JT so late is now an open secret, and u guys' kaypohism shld be kept in control lah.. although i have got a lot of juicy news.. haha.. but this is a special request.

And today played bball at tampines in evening.. and i sprained MY BLOODY ANKLE ONCE MORE. DAMN IT. WHY THE HECK IS THE ANKLE NOT RECOVERING SOON? I WANT MY BBALL. so hor, next week go swimming lah.. at Yong jian's place. ok?? can watch ramee. remember the orange bikini clad girl? haha.

WEll, but i insisted on playing. and not bad for a bai Kar. i can still play pseudo normally.
Weibin wanted me to type here. HE FIRST TIME SCORED SO MANY POINTS IN A GAME. NOt bad sia. the 7th point.. and u also scored the rest of the 4 points. although amateur style for our team, but i like the fighting spirit! and again it happened when i sprained my ankle again.
Yeah, and our game took to a higher level with more emotion involved. I fouled kiat and he hit his head on the pole.. and weibin's leg kanna cramped.. even the ramees and the old guy watched finish the game before they all went back home for more dramas at channel 8.
How shiok is that? ten minutes of NBA. that is high enuff. a baikar with a cramped kar and a rodman won the game! U know, that gives some hope to the old guy. Now , maybe he will believe in miracles. Miracles in normal daily lives. At least. WIll and determination still plays a huge factor in excelling from others.
Luckily, my ankle didnt swell like 3 weeks ago. but i shld say that the live-like -last-day style of playing was realli worth all the pain.
Not bad .. now with Ah liang and weibing and hopefully Zen's entry, i hope that the gang will be growing. maybe we could even have our very own gathering like last time at the Hanlip's chalet. 17 guys. how was that? no bbq, all r guys' stuffs. maybe this time round will need more coordination, hopefully kester will be back then. then our reunion dae will be coming soon.
Forget abt those irritating troubles and work and those disturbing r/s stuffs, we just conc on watching ramees.. maybe from tv?haha. i want my fried sotong mee now, not the prawn one, and definitely not the tiger prawns.

Today

Today is a blur day.. super blur..
Today 1) supposed to meet Wilson at 9am.. but i overslept and sleep till 910. and so in the end took a lift from him at ard 940. and so arrived sch for tutorial.. and not for the AUTOCAD thing. After the tut, then we went to print our AUTOCAD drawings.
2) i tot the AUTOCAD programme's "plot" is not "print" . so i plot plot plot plot plot.. and in the end, the printer printed printed printed printed, and even printed onto other people's papers... arGGGHHHHHH.
3) In toilet, forgotten i had a hp in my pocket, and somehow the phone dropped.. and almost dropped into the toilet bowl.. so how was that. if someone called.. the vibration will send it down to the sewage treatment plant.
4) i knew my lecture was at 130pm. But i tot it was at 230pm. yah, but i was lucky in sense that i tot i was early, and intend to go into the lecture hall half an hr earlier to sleep .. and so surprise surprise surprise, the lecturer is giving a similar lesson before ours?
5)At TM, a salesgirl approached me and JunTing, asking "can i help u?". But instead of saying " no thanks or no need" , my reflex led me to saying a big" NO. no no..." and she was so stunned, so she just walked away.. and after which i went to tell her i wasnt being rude there. and Junting was laughing till his bread talk bread taken 5 mins ago all spilled onto the floor( too exaggerated).
Well, a blur day for a blur person.

Quizes

Quizes! This week got 2. Next week got 1. The week after got 2! 6 weeks later is starting of examinations!
Ma De... got so many mosquitoes after rain. Hope that they arent Aedes.. haha.. today sprained my ankle again.. damn.. and the first day of lesson, i slept thru 3 of the lectures.. Why? Cos yesterday want to sleep earlier so today can have a nice day ahead.. but how i know my body cant switch back from sleeping time at 2 am to 11 pm.. ended up sleeping at ard 2am.. woke up at 630am.. so sleeping continues in school.. hope tmr isnt like this anymore..haha. ok lar.. go do some stuffs..haha

Sunday mooncake

just eaten an orange flavoured mooncake.. it is damn nice... anyway today had tuition , and QiHao gave me a good laugh thru the way he answered some questions.. still a kid with innocence.. haha.. laughing mad..
Went to lib today.. and studied there. My sis joined me at ard 3pm and we studied together till ard 730pm. Didnt went for Jc outing cos it was cancelled last mintue. And after which, we went to shop ard at TM.. bought present (a hand care stuff at The Body Shop) for mom's bdae, children day's presents for QiHao and his sis, and also my own stuffs. Then came home straight. The temple beside our block is staging a Mooncake festival celebration, where there is a group of girls singing and dancing lol. Not bad considering that they r onli 14-17 years old from what i guaged. ok lar.. shall watch TV liao.

A day in Sept

Today is an ok day. not that good or bad..
Yesterday asked a good fren of mine to help me in some biz finance work till late night.. then is like i am too inquisitive.. asked too much.. and she seemed a little fan.. sigh , sorry sia.

Ok, today is a long sat. why a long sat? cos no bball for me... all thanks to bluey.
and so i woke up at 1130am,had my hair cut.. and meal at home. then went to lib to mug wif andy till ard 7pm. i think i am pretty unproductive.. cos i am so sian.. dun feel like studying.. but i force myself to study..
And there is a stupid incident at lib today.. the librarian came to tell my table's people that no self studying in weekends in lib. and then she turned to me and tell me.. "No Mp3 in lib, cos will disturb other people.." Huh? i was stunned. And i told her" This is not a loudspeaker.." and off she went, ignoring my lame comment. She definitely got sonic ears.. cos, my earphone is spoilt on the way to the lib, and i hardly can hear any thing.. (strangely, my earphone is spoilt in such a fashion that the singer's voice is gone, leaving behind all the background musics and the beats and stuffs.. just like KTV! yeah i enjoyed it! very nice ! U want? i can sell it at half price..) And she is surely a mutant.. u know.. with special power..not that i want to endanger her well-being while she is trying to live peacefully with us, but hor, she is abusing her power..
What ever, i am still fuming over the encounter wif this mutant.
and recently, i received sms. not that all the while i didnt. but i think those sms put me off.. pls lar.. i am also guilty of commiting the following mistake.. but i just want to point out.. sms or msn messages r rather emotionless, meaning they r similar to cold and hard facts. So can next time add in some expressions? like a smile or haha or lol.. some dont even bother to.. and i tot that they r just pissed off while replying me.. and i also feel disgusted when replying back..
ok let's make sms and msn a better place by adding =) or :P or XD or whatever funny face.. even if it is >:( i am ok wif it..
lastly, i made my own chewy chocolate ice cream .. easy and convenient. all u need is some innovation and materials..
sch is starting soon. just hope everything will be falling into place by then.
-Happy Mooncake festival- =) enjoy the good time with ur loved ones!

Spiral to freedom

I am in a spiral. Oh. a spiral which leads to deep trouble. Oh no. But then, i will definitely try to go up this spiral of quicksand, cos i know what's waiting at the end. But it is very tough, the more i struggle, the deeper i will sink. Just hope that i will still clinch on to my belief that i will succeed. Cos failures can lead to even the deepest belief being worn out.

Today,saw a Hebe-look-alike JC girl. And her bf is yet a maybe-younger than her guy(in sec sch). Ok, many may ask so what? but i had been thinking that as they grew older, they will surely have many obstacles to cross. When the ger went to uni, the guy is in college. when she went to work, the guy is in NS. Blah blah blah and such. the thing is will they have the belief in each other to confront the storm? bah... i am being kaypoh here.

My ankle is yet to recover. Thanks sia, blue-shirt teenager. U knocked me down and caused my ankle to swell like ur head when u scored a point. haha no lar.. but the thing is, is this a retribution? i caused thousands of ankle injury to others thruout the whole of Sg.Now is my turn. Thanks sia, blue shirt chap, u relieved my sin. Should i tomolo get a basket of fruit to the bball court to thank u? U caused me to walk in pain for 1 week plus, cant chase MRT, buses and stuff, caused me to be late.. And tomolo cannot play bball, and i am getting fatter, and this break i didnt take my IPPT. all thanks to u, blue-shirt ankle twister. Thanks thanks. But by doing this, ur karma point increased right? cos u relieved me of my sin.. Good one.. Dun let me see u again,ok? Cos i dun want to spend money to buy a basket of fruits.

Haha.. dun worry lah.. i dun blame u bluey. Cos that is not ur fault. just dont be like me, next time kanna such retribution. take care, bluey.

3.19am

Wanted to do some biz finance when i got home..or sleep earlier. but today, unexpectedly i chatted wif 2 of my frens online till so late.. and now just ended the conversation.
One is wif Jean, whom shared her views on BGR, and another is MeiYing, who said that she wanted to get trim and slim. and we even challenged each other, she will try to become slimmer, while i'll try to become more mature.
Today is a fun day, went to lib to read up before meeting Jean, Laiyee and Aloysius for a fabulous KTV session. i like singing very much, cos i am proud of my own singing.. though not very nice. Heeee. And we sang and sang for 6 hours.. i wish the time stopped there.. so fun in the small rm.
After which we all met JunTing, who is being introduced to Aloysius. And we had dinner at a food court followed by a chat-cum-tutoring session at BK. Jean is the tutor for 2 of us. Abor.. she is a full grad lei.... And after which Jean,Laiyee and JunTing went off together, and i took Aloysius's car home. On the way, i realised our friendship climbed up another step, and the content of the chat is my sincere thoughts.
And so, with so many work to complete.. i have to work hard tomolo.. sian.. i hate to be pressed for homework..=P

2am

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed
and dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'
But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise..

Yeah, nowadays i am always on the lookout for such people, who offer to help strangers whom r in need. Whenever i spot such people, will just feel warm in heart, realli makes my day.

just surfed many many sites, window-shopped online till i drop.. shld be sleeping real soon, it is 220am now.Puffy eyes, sagging eyebags.. and hello panda's trademarks on my face.

Mindset Tests

Did 2 sets of tests on the mental age..
one is in chinese, and it reflects that i am 33 at heart. Think it is not very accurate, cos i think i am not so old at heart.
but another one i did in english shows that i am a kid of 14 at heart.
For 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
So the av shows that i am 23.5 year old. And that is pretty accurate.

Btw, went to meet up wif Jean, Aloysius, LaiYee and Ying Ling today. I arrived the lastest , but they didnt blame me. And after which, we proceeded to Suki SuShi to have a high tea buffet. The food there is nice, and i think it is better than Sakae SuShi lor. The price is abt the same as Sakae, but the side dishes offered are really much much more variety then those offered at Sakae. They have softshell crab, shashimi, and stuffs as sidedishes, so good rite..
And i eat till i earn back my $17.. haha..
And after which we went for a short session of pools after YL left for her massaging session. lol..
Well , Aloy is a pretty fast learner. First time playing pool, yet he won 2 matches.

And i was thinking we were very fortunate to be still in contact now.. So glad that the friendship is still growing. Apprieciate the helps and care from those friends..

A date wif vampire 3

Watching it now, was damn funny in some scenes..
Anyway, ankle recovered 65%.And the ache from swimming +sunburn still continues till now.
http://www.xlzx.com/xlcs/zy32.htm . Try this survey. I am 33 years old in mental age. on the childish side. What r urs?

Sat

Woke up early but arrived late at sniper's hse for the swim. But the swim was extremely fun.. as the 7 of us played modified version of water polo there.. was feeling alrite then, but was realli shagged in the afternoon. All of us experienced sunburn instead of sun tan... after which we had a reunion lunch following yesterday's dinner. Act cool monkey left for some religious stuff, and pirated Yao Ming went back to catch some sleep, Pirated point guard Shaq O'neal went to meet his dear dear.. keke~~
So left wif onli Rodman, Tim Duncan and Marshall Pig General to return to sniper's hse to play Winning Eleven 8. U could never imagine how we play till as if we were playing the real World Cup. Pushed Austria thru qualifying round wif exactly the same goal diff as 3rd placed China , but becos Austria starts wif A, so we got into the play offs. Damn stupid... cos head to head record is China wins us lor..
And the first play off against Columbia ended in penalty situation after extra periods. We had to take near to 10 penalties to get thru.. and the most exciting part is against France, where Austria won 1-0. But we were lucky to divert all of France's attack. And the last 10 minutes of defensive play against France left the 4 of us speechless.. we had to suffer the trauma of France's blitz against the keeper, who seems invincible in front of the posts which deflected many many many shots.. the wood work also deflect the last minute attack by France in the dying moment. And the win seems like we had won the cup.. no lor.. u know.. just like Xiang Bei.. we won Shan Wang, but lost to Ai He.. and so we lost in the semi finals to Bulgaria and even the 3rd-fourth placing..
After that we rushed to tampines to meet Mr TKSS-ex-insurer and HnLp for lan. shouldnt elaborate those exciting moments here. But Rampage rocks!
Enuff of my longwindedness.. need to catch up wif the EPL results liao..

I am afraid..

I am afraid that there exist a fracture in my leg.. and it is damn damn painful when i walked..
Today, went to Marina to have dinner wif the bball people. Met WeiAn, ChyeGuan, YongJian and JunTing first and we proceeded to one of the restaurant to eat.. I was quite pissed off with the quality of service.. their crabs ran out, and yet when i asked whether can replace the crabs wif prawns.. the guy told me that the prawns r more expensive.. wat reason is he giving. Feel like slamming him wif the food. Trying to dismiss off the customers using such reason. The prawns r the same as usual lor.. no stock then at least compensate lah.. Hate such lousy management. Cheat the hell out of customers. It is worse then another reastaruant which provides more food yet at a cheaper price lor. Last time i am there, i already dislike their attitude .. now i condemn that restuarant.
Ok, then Han Kwong came.. after which Zuyao and Joyce came. Though short meetup, but still i churn up a super hilarious comedy.. It is an internal joke lar.. and i dont find it funny. Just that they r laughing till they cry.
Yeah. King of melon snatcher.
And i endure the pain and came back home. Pain in the leg.. and i didnt eat much today, cos the pain these days caused me a bad appetite. but still we still managed to enjoy some discounts.. yeah, onli people of bball gang know.
ok lar.. now is officially the break liao. past 12.
CHEERS! EXAMS R COMING! YEAH!!! I AM LUVING IT..
siao....................
anyway, feeling like using f-words here.. but in the end erased them. cos i am feeling very pissed off by many things.
Fish
Fork
Flank
Food
Fuck
oops.. did i say it? yeah , since i said it once, it would do no harm typing more. As someone told me, if u stab a person, it doesnt matter whether u stab him once or hundred times.. cos he already feel the pain, so might as well stab more..

=)

wHAT Happened to me?!!??!
Today woke up late.. cos i set the alarm at 8(normal is 830) thinking of waking up earlier to read the paper and enjoy the breakfast.. but i woke up at 9 instead! cos i woke up at 8 and thinking that i still have spare time, so i went back to sleep.. and woke up at 9.. and i was running late.. and i sms wilson, but he was sleeping too.. arggg... so was damn damn late for lec..
on the way met xuelin and her fren called yu xin(sp. error) then we actualli chatted abt IA stuffs. The 2 of them went thru it before, so they adviced me to take it on yr 3.. and not the last sem, which i have intended to. they said that i will learn things which will help me to appreciate the theories more.. so an IA in between is actually beneficial. Hmm.. now must think thru it.. think they make sense. True lar..
and these few days i have stopped attempting my tuts.. so slack.. and also been playing games everyday since last week.. alamak.. i have changed.. slacker now.... oh no.. and now my bro wans me to watch EPL highlights wif him, think i will oblige. hehe.
and btw, since the day i sprained my ankle.. my relatives and my mum have been nagging me to buy a pair of bball shoes.. which i dun intend to get.. cos i think i am not so pro yet to get one.. but then , to stop the nagging which is on a rampage(ARHHHHH!) , .. i have to get my first pair of BBall shoes. It is a red pair of converse bball shoes.. forgotten the model.. but i gotten it for 49.90 at sales.
But then, seems weird to wear .. a little too high.. i will be like Yao Ming if i wear it with my 1.70+++++++ frame =)

Lame and Limpy

Feeling kind of hungry now. But i am not going to get food. Cos canteen seems so far today. And travelling between Lib 2 and tutorial class seems to take forever. All becos of my sprained ankle, which kept me locked up in home for the past 2 days.
So, this morning had to trouble Wilson again to hitch a ride from him. Then had diarroaeh(whatever the sp.) before the first tutorial class. What the heck right! Bad things come together.
And my ankle is feeling damn painful now, after all the walking. But then ,the swell has reduced liao.. all thanks to my mum and dad who take turns to help me apply oniment and rub my damn swollen ankle. Not that i dun wan to see a physician. but becos i always sprain my ankles, so i don see the pt of seeing one anymore. it is like a chronical ailment of mine. Sian...and my right leg seems to work too much till i can feel muscle sore at night.
Wah biang. And i need tutorial answers! Sian, seems like people ard me are without answers too. Not that i didnt do.. is i couldnt solve for some questions.
Anyway sat's bball is fun. And i even cont playing after i sprained my ankle. That explains the swell. Now walking is a task for me, will sweat like siao, and i see my IPPT postponed to Dec liao.=) yeah!!
K lah, feeling damn sick now, cos of the pain in leg. Oh yar. sent to Kes the sound clips liao, guys. He said he appreciated them. And pls pls be on for the marina thing lei.. so long for such occasion. BBall gang rulez!~

FRIDAE

TODAY IS FRIDAE! YEAH! AND I HAVE COMPLETED MY FLUIDS QUIZ! YEAH YEAH! THINK I DID OK.

anyway, later gonna play LAN!! yeah.