I am wondering why is it so hard for one to find another whom he/she likes. Even if they r together now, they will still question over many disparities between them. Why cant things just be simple and nice. Just like a piece of jigsaw with another piece. If they dont fit, they will never fit. But if they fit, they will never split again. Sigh.. Love/life is so complicated. And some said that love is like similitudes, cannot be measured (by units). that "some" is me lah..

Just now played minesweeper wif wilson. kept my promise man. haha, and not bad.. we 2 r smart people. lol. though luck is important, i found that in that game, when to be risk taking or risk adverse, when to be cunning, when to be conservative is important. Alertness is a must, and one cannot put down his guard though he is leading, cos miracles do happen. Miracles happen when one situation seems tough to be achieved, but yet it is achieved through that small possibility. See, we r all miracles. Cos, we won in the Million-people-swim before we were born. One in a million sia. We r all the worthy champions. so, even if some others look down on us, we shld at least not look down on ourselves. Where had ur fighting spirit in that swim dissipated to? Sometimes it is easy to say such words as above.. to be very optimistic in that very second, but again, for me, that moment is fast lost. Why cant that optimism last longer? At least i would be happier. Happiness is so hard to achieve. Money of cos can buy happiness, but sometimes, when u had too much money, the joy of getting richer becomes plainer.. and one day, having more money would mean zero increment in joy. That is when u can become a monk/nun bah.. cos u kan4 po4 hong2 cen2 le.
I am thinking of finding work during this hols. but i am going to malaysia with mom. and also got this callup.. and my ippt.. that short month shld be a jobless month for me.. i dun realli want to do work during hols. Onli when i feel rotting away, then i yearn for work. cos i am not afraid that i cant get enough of working life. I had ard 40 years ahead for me to work and slog, so i just cant be bothered to work. haha, that is certainly not being lazy. That is just another perspective. Not trying to find excuses, just being plain straight here. Ok, tutorial time.. i want to complete the last question at least.. fun time passed so fast. My weekend is almost gone. Sian. Ok, be optimistic for a moment. Yeah! Sch is starting soon, yeah, the quiz is coming. Meaning that it will be over soon.