Today, exam is finally over. But.. i dun feel happy. cos i dun feel secure. after finishing the paper, i had an uneasy feeling that i might not be able to grad on time due to this paper. But, after doing some analysis with the worst scenario situations, i still managed to get a total score of around 53%. This is quite comforting, but this does not confirm a pass, as results are not absolutely taken. However, since i could do nth more other than feeling troubled to improve the current situation, i decided to adopt a happier mood to live everyday till judgement day arrives. Hope that all my friends and I will grad on time! I wanna throw the hat tog with them and .. i dun want to be left behind in school =(

Anyway, today went out with Jing and Shan. Was quite moody for half of the day.. luckily they r quite tolerant towards me.. thanks.. and slowly i begin to get back to a bit of my normal self.. slowly..

and was really happy to sing bei pan and xu yao ni de ai with shan.. cos..can feel we r both venting out LOL.

Time to prepare for FYP and also to meet up with frens.. good.

Battle just began

Finally, i had decided to open up to the fears of years, and challenge it. I will prevail! For i believe in the unmeasurable strength of Mankind's determination and perserverence.

Today is a jittery day.. it's a bad sunday. I hope i will nv feel as lonely and as helpless anymore. Things were made difficult for myself, by myself.

Shld sleep now.. today's unproductive. But tml will wrap up everything.

Exams

2 down, 2 more to go. Yesterday's paper was quite alright, but really scared to nt pass that paper.. cos it is ENV paper. But then today suddenly realised sth wrong when walking back home from studying. V sheng qi feeling.. but it spelt trouble.. cos when i got home, i straight redo the part where i had a bad feeling abt it on the way back.. and realised i had keyed wrongly into the calculator(my steps were right, just that the final answer is wrong) Damn sian sia.. that Qns is 12 marks one, and following got a few marks qns which depended on the ans obtained earlier for calculations. i am really hoping that i could pass this paper and grad in time. Really got v scared after failing last yr's ENV paper le.. a bit phobic now, but really hope this mistake wont affect my graduation date. I wanna get out into the working society with my peers! hmm, actually thinking back, for this paper, i have the 'can pass' feeling. so, shld be ok, I hope...

Tml's con tech!! I really wanna pass it! Cos.. a lot of ppl keep saying tt it is tough.. esp YS.. i get v phobic too... argh.. And next tues's Coastal, i heard it is killer paper.. but i dun wish to regret taking it.. must pass it!! No matter what, to graduate on time is my only wish for the time being!!

Friends and well-wishers, please pray hard for me and my peers, and wish us the best of lucks in our final papers!!

It's good to be healthy.

It's good to be hearing once more. My ears r now alright! Thanks for the care and concern from some of the frens! Really v hearing-warm to know someone cares. Today's studying is the happiest session of this week. Cos.... It's good to be able to hear what u frens r saying.. able to listen to music the way it is played.. able to taste food the way it is cooked(hearing loss=taste loss too.. cos of earache) And yippy! i can listen to my MP3's again!! Lost interest in music in the past 4 days.. lol, now i had re ignited the love for it! Well, from this loss of hearing incident, i realised sth.. I didnt gain anything as compared to 4 days ago. Yet i am a happier man now.. because i had lost and found back something which is so precious to me.

Hi all,

Very unmotivated to study these days. And these days suffered from partial hearing loss =(
Hope this temp handicap will go off soon. I cant tahan all these anymore..

Well, exams r coming, hope that i can pass all and graduate as scheduled. And these days had been studying with Tabby, YongLing and YangShan and occasionally YuJing and KianZhi. So.. studying isnt as boring as i tot will be la.. lol..

OK, hope tml my ear will recover!! CHEERS!

All ends well.

Yesterday marks the end of my schooling stage of life. Wonderful 25 years. Also painfully long. Humans are contradictary, while we r in it, we yearn to get out of it. But now when i can finally free myself from the shackles, i yearn to stay a bit longer, to feel part of NTU, to feel the peaceful feeling in school in late afternoon on a friday.. and the good feelings of being with friends. No more of that in future. Even if i were to continue studying, things will be the same as in the past.

My last day in school was simple. Ate breakfast with air pollution guys. Then met up with Tabby and Kz for lunch. After which, went for the last class in my whole schooling life. And after the class went to find Tabby adn Kz in tut rm and while i force them to study, i took a day break. Completed my MVP Valentines. V nice ending.. cos that is what we as audiences wanted. And after which went with Tabby to shop in Nanyang Mart and had a biscuit session with the 2 Yr Ones LOL. They r so noob still LOL. And then these 2 siblings-lookalike-ppl started dancing. And i started learning a bit.. cos i tot might be useful to know a bit in future. haha, and dinner in the new canteen before heading home. Now.. can start to feel a bit lost. Like YS felt in the last 2 weeks, i only started to feel on the last day. Ok, this is the escalator of life. It nv stops at a single spot.

=)

Finished but not yet ended

Yest was the last lesson of GV17. Presentation was quite bad and rushy. Hope i dont pull down the grp's grade with my ill prepared presentation. And after the class was a lot of pics taking outside Ms Leona's room at the scenic open air area. Was sad that the class is ending... and the whole class even presented Ms Leona with a big card with all our words of gratitude inside. And the my close cliques in this class decided to go out for dinner after the lesson lol. Good idea, so i decided to forgo the time to do my FYP, cos i wanted to be with the rest since many of them are present. Sureli got v sad and had a dramatic half an hr at ADM LOL. only the ppl in this grp knew abt what happened. But hope she learnt that saying bye is part and parcel of life. Meeting up with new frens is always coupled with departure eventually. Inevitable truth.

Anyway, we all headed to Swensens which is one of the restaurants that i dun fancy, cos Tabby cant have food at non-halal restaurants. But nevertheless the company with whom i had dinner with is good, so makes the exp there better. We gave Sureli her bday present since a few days later will be the happy occasion. She liked what Eugene and his gf picked for her. Phew, good good. And, we also managed to come out with a little surprise for this little sis of ours, by ordering an ice cream cake for her to celeb in advance her 17-yr-old birthday. Then followed by a lot of pic taking by the youngsters.. i didnt think i am one of them though.. just sat there and looking at them having fun. LOL. And i had captured one pic of the grp tog, thus, i am not inside the pic.

And so, things ended in a happy fashion, which is what i wanted.