ok a long while didnt update...

yup, let's recap abt this past week.nothing much at work, except that i am suddenly tagged to be J-A's personal slave in office.. cos i helped her do a lot of the documentation and delivery. and SM and J-A have accepted us into their clique. and we lamed abt a lot in office... and the dept is planning a KTV session and chalet in the upcoming weeks! Hooray!!

Went KTV with tou-er YJ and val on thurs.. v nice session! enjoyed myself thoroughly.

Today went bball, and it is a nice session too.. managed to control my aggression and short temper. That is why games r enjoyable.. not cos of the win/loss. well,and had a haircut.. and that is REFRESHING =)

well,been dota-ing too much these days... but after work also sian.. nothing to do.. so dota lor... actually planned badminton with tou-er YJ YS and wil.. but didnt have court.. so in the end cancelled it.

yup.. looking forward to work on monday! realised i really enjoyed companion from my colleagues. planning to extent my IA. but still not sure shld i complete my last GE or not.. and that reminds me of reservist. yack! fast sia.. and my ippt.... havent clear yet.

Boring boring sunday

So bored can?

Recently, my laptop is giving me 2 scares.. 1 incident is its corrupted windows file.. the more recent one is the speaker scare in which the speaker setting is changed without my knowledge and is not reinstated after altering.

Watched Mr Bean on Holiday. Damn funny! I laughed thruout the show. haha.. Mr Bean is satanic at times, he will cause pain to others without knowledge of it. haha. but he is also a person who can survive thru the toughest time.. esp when he lost all his lugages( eh.. suddenly I 'd forgotten how to spell it.. is it correct?) and even his passport! haha.. and he is helpful and full of sympathy for others at times.. like one part where he stepped onto a man who is lying on the beach. I can hear the whole cinema crying in pain for him! everyone went ^Awwww~~~~^ when he is being stepped. The effect is fantastic! haha.. LIVE one somemore. WAHAHA..

again, boring boring sunday.. i am looking forward to work.. to being 'tortured' by J-A again LOL. no la , just joking .. is not a torment la.. haha.

Ok, enough!

This morning is a damn pissed morning. Not that i am pissed with myself onli.. i am pissed with frens who tot they understand me and critised me without standing in my shoes.

but firstly, my company hasnt pay me yet! It is rumoured that the pay will be delayed from 1st of March to 15th March... which is the second consecutive month with pays being dragged. And now.. even till 15th they havnt even pay us.. and the perm staffs have already ALL received their pay on the 1st of March already.. U mean the company is so poor to even fork out less than 5000 dollars for the interns when it had already forked out more than 50 grands (assume 50 ppl in the company and each receives 1000 bucks ONLY) for the perm staffs? What is the finance dept doing?

ok back to the morning incident.
1) to zu, no offense ah.. but i think that there is no valid comparison as in the people i was exposed to in sch with those that u have exposed to in work. I never agree that i am exposed to human nature less then u ,Zu.. u r being too subjective in the morning when using this pt. that is why i didnt even manage to listen it in.

2) Please be in shoes... Dont keep critising me as if I NEVER put in effort to change my way of playing bball. U mean u didnt see any change from the past as compared to nowadays? Dont say that u all have been tolerating me and stuffs.. i also have been trying to improve. BUT see it in this way..IFu have a body as heavy as mine.. and IF u can react and move as fast as me.. u will know what i mean by being helpless to control my actions on court. I mean i am really serious when playing.. so i wont have this half heartedness to go for ball when i see the chance.. Ok, my reaction and my ideal outcome of maybe getting a steal or what may be defeated by the force of gravity on my body. the inertia is too great to stop when i am already accelerating. AND who ever think that my action is with malicious intent on my friends or fellow bballers (except tanks sometimes.. cos they simply offended me when they bullied my frens on court).. i think i have never see u as a friend from the day i know of ur existence till now.

3) I never ever wanted to fight, but if u do, please find some ah bengs outside who r more willing to kick ur ass than i do. pick a fight on them if u dare. Do so then come back to pick a fight with me.

4) If i offended u and said sorry.. and yet u r trying to be difficult.. U SIMPLY WILL TURN MY DEFENSIVE NATURE ON. I Will NOT LET U GO UNTIL U HAVE ENOUGH OF ME.. and if u wan to pICK A FIGHT WITH ME.. FUCKING REFER TO POINT 3.

5) NEVER EVER CRITICISE MY FREINDS OR ANY RELATED PERSONNELS WHEN U R UNHAPPY WITH ME. IF U DO..DONT BLAME ME IF I REALLY CANNOT TAHAN AND STARTED CURSING ALL THE PEOPLE THAT U HAVE LOVED DEARLY. AND I MEAN EVEN THE SMALLEST CRITICISM ABT THEM.. U WILL GET IT IF U DO IT AGAIN.

6) If the bball team really cannot tolerate the way i play..and insisted that i didnt put in effort to cut down fouls and knocks,despite knowing my increasing body mass and consistent reaction and movement speed,and is oblivious to the fact that i have realli tried to cut down on all the fouls and knocks.. and the fact that i am trying to control my temper during a game when i am very highly charged with adrenaline, then please tell me that u all will be happier if i never ever play bball with u all again. i can make sure that i wont participate in any bball games with u all ever again.

7) i am sorry for my ill temper at times.. but this time rd, i think that the whole episode is blowing out of proportion cos MAYBE , I SAY MAYBE someone's ego is hurt by the fact that he lost to a bunch of losers that he perceived right from the start of the match. OR MAYBE he always see me as a pain in his neck.. COS I AM AWARE THAT HE NEVER EVER SAID ANY POSITIVE THINGS ABT ME, INSTEAD HE KEEP FUCKING TRYING TO FIND FAULT WITH ME THRU OUT THE YEARS. That is why he can kick a fuss out of a small incident which IS ONE-OFF AND PURELY AN ACCIDENT WHICH I ALREADY APOLOGISED FOR THAT. AND HE USED THAT TO CRITICISE MY FRENS AND EVEN MY FUTURE GIRLFRIEND.. I DONT SEE THAT AS A SMALL MATTER U KNOW.. AND THE CRITICISM IS OUT OF NOWHERE.. OBVIOUSLY AIMING TO AGITATE ME.. AND WHEN U DO THAT, DONT FUCKING BLAME FOR BEING SO DEFENSIVE.

THAT IS ALL.. I AM TOO TIRED TO TYPE ABT THIS INCIDENT.

Today:

afternoon went to sing KTV with Shunli ShuFang and Liqing.. whao.. the 5 hours is really long.. sang till i feel really satisfied. Shunli went to meet Dinosaur, so me and the other 2 girls decided to go for dinner after tat. i suggest to bring them to Amoy street from chinatown... since my survey had covered these areas.. and i know how to walk there from the ktv. Then to our disappointment, a lot of stalls r closed on this sat night! ... and we walked ard and finally reached far east square NOT FAR EAST PLAZA LOL.. and settled for a Jap restaurant. We r v glad that we unintentionally chose this place to dine.. cos the food r rather nice (ok, the ramen i ordered sucks..cos the ramen is actually maggie mee!) but those that LQ n SF ordered r v nice.. i will try the chicken one if i ever go there again.

hmm... today is a slack yet nice day! Wohoo.. why nice?

1) Nina challenged me to Sudoku again.. every morning we had this competition in the old office.. between me and her.. and in the new office, we occasionally will have it. Today she challenged me to 2 puzzles! haha.. The first one i had won her! LOL... after losing numerous times to her.. finally, i beat her by a great margin. and the second one is a terribly tough puzzle. she gave up, while i continued and completed it by using last resort of making a guess between 2 squares.

2) Today a lot of big shots in my dept didnt come! LOL.. so happy.. cos it is v relaxing when the rest of the big shots r away from the office. and today the best scenario is left with Rongfeng, alex, weihong, ju-ann and me! only 5 ppl! yeah!.. slack ard..

3) Our tutor is finally coming over T_T.... LOL.. on 23rd.. yeah... actually nothing to be happy abt la.. but tat day we can slack a little while, while he interviews our sups.

4) Lunch at canteen nearby, had the mixed vege rice served in buffet style yet again! this is 3 out of 3 visits there eating at this stall! Nice food, huge portion, and it is V V cheap! and it is served by customers taking the food themselves.. so can help myself to more food at the same price LOL.. the stall owners r v friendly couple too! always wanting to give more and charge less.. nice nice.

5) Ju-Ann finally interacted with alex me and weihong when the office left with 5 of us.. and found that she is a nice person too.. when she didnt scold.. LOL.. ok, i sounded as if she is v old.. haha keep scolding.. but in fact she is younger than me.. and i knew yishan's fren.. who happens to be her SP friend.

6) Saw this girl who looks like rosanne of 2R on the MRT. ok, i admit i keep looking at her.

7) This morning, while on train.. a v friendly old uncle came forward to strike conversation with me.. haha.. cos maybe he noticed that i was looking at a pregnant woman who wasnt being given up a seat to.. and he was furious abt that too.. that is why he tapped on my shoulder and said that nowadays Singaporeans r selfish and non-gracious. i of cos said that some r like that... with me and a few the exceptional =P.. LOL.. ok the last statement is non-existent.
and he even went to the extent of saying how much his children gave him as allowances, how his son changed gf like clothes.. and how his daughter refuse to get married.. LOL.. so funny.. but it is nice to feel that he actually trusted me.. and he said that he was in sales line in the past.. and he knew who is sincere while talking, who arnt.. LOL.. i hope that i am the sincere one in his view.

8) Dota. again, i know....

Thought thru..i have no choice but to give up. yes, thanks to ur persistence in persuading me to give up. Now i see some light. glaring and v painful. but it is good that i woke up from my own world of dream. In reality,nothing is left. the bottle i perceived is half filled.. but u made me now see it as half emptied..
no thanks for waking me up from my beautiful dream.

Did the sat shift today. ROar! we only took 40 mins to finish everything! haha.. 930-1010.. and we r dismissed! and so me, Nina and Alex went to Singapore Zam Zam to eat.. it is in Arab street. had chicken mutarbak.. v v filling! and that is supposed to be breakfast.. in the end.. i didnt even need to take my lunch. Went to national lib to read magazines.. and went to parco bugis to jalan before decided to head for PS.. and stayed at the BK for an hr plus to read Straits Times.. to kill time.. before gg ard PS to look ard. Then decided to head to PP.. so took MRT to bedok and take the shuttle to PP.. jalan a bit and tot that there is nth to see there.. so went to Katong Shopping Complex to find a seat and cont reading my papers for another 1 and half hrs before the arrival of LAN kakis.. Whao.. today played 2 fantastic games.. both r great wins! think me have improved a lot.. haha.. that is great! everyone is happy with victories. ppl over LAN even invited us to challenge them.. but dun wan la.. as the saying goes..来者不善， 善者不来.
Dun wan later spark conflicts due to unhappiness in the game.. and lead to fights. haha. and we left to makan supper before heading home.

yesterday went out with yangshan and mantou and co. to celebrate huamin's bdae.. ate at Asian Kitchen before heading to Starbucks to sit ard. Simple outing, cos a lot of ppl in city hall! that is due to the IT fair lor..think half of sg's population is there yesterday.. could feel the ground sinking(as if) ! think everyone have changed a bit in their dressing.. and thus all look prettier than b4. tat is working life? haha..maybe... and yesterday one of the girl in my office dressed up till quite attractive... and have no choice but to notice her. not only me.. everyone does.. even nina said commented ' why she looks so sexy today?' HAHAHA a funny comment from her.

tml is nua day.. gonna go library search for more books (if i am not lazy, and is free) and monday is work day again! gonna buy sth to replenish our food stock in our ' pantry' .. cos i havnt contribute yet.. haha.. chee yong and yanto had buy sth liao.. my turn.. hmm.. what shld i buy? i am thinking of buying tidbits.. lol.. but nina is buying crackers.. maybe shld buy biscuits.. as Kelvin said.. we all r getting fatter.. EVERYDAY since we had moved to the spot near Singpost. LOL.. and v funny lei.. every lunch time, the guys in our office ,with the gers along too la.. will normally go to singpost to eat and to look at office girls..LOL.. so many there.. and we r glad that our lunch times coincide. haha.. esp chee yong and yanto.. they v excited abt lunch @ singpost . ahhahaa. and we r super broke after visits to ntuc to buy foodstock over the past week.

getting fun in office now.. at least ann is talking to us liao.. she isnt scolding me anymore LOL.. but more of suaning me.. and mei is responding to us..yeah..

If u disliked me, now u could have a good laugh at my stupidity

I have this super negative tot. i think i am a pain in people's neck. and i tried to appease them for being such pain, by apologising. i am sure that this wont work.. and they may find me a bigger pain and may even laugh at me for being such weirdo or weakling. but then.. sometimes i really dun know why i did so much.

ah... wish i can disappear from earth at this moment. but i just cant isolate myself.. i am v scared of loneliness, u know.. being outcasted, being ignored...

Grrr... damn... maybe i shld just keep my mouth shut now.. so everyone will have a better life.

today is a rather unpleasant day... haiz!
In the morning kanna scold by that J again. was discussing with RF some stuffs.. and just cos we were a bit loud...since we were sitting right behind her.. and she is in a bad mood.. she just screamed at us.. ok this i can tolerate.. i see her so worked up after some stuffs.. also dun wan to find fault with an angry woman. Then later during lunch... have this conversation.. and RF and A jokingly said i am slack.. ok i know it is jokingly.. but somehow when they keep saying it over and over again.. i will feel a bit bad.. cos i know i am lazy at times..but i am definitely not slack OK!

and to avoid the unpleasant office atmosphere... i accepted nina's offer to accompany her to go find a film based cam for the company.. aiyaya.. hate the tot that others think i am slack, when i am not! cos i dislike slack ppl the most..

ok.. 1 more day... to WEEKEND.. and weekend still have to work.. and pay is gonna come on 15th i heard. #*&# stupid co. !! my $$$$$!!

whao.. today just extracted my 2 wisdom teeth(upper ones)! I had been brave to actually go for the extraction, considering i have phobia of blood and needles. There isnt much pain, just the jabbing part is a little painful.. now the 2 molars r out.. one is decayed.. tat is why yesterday it shattered. And total cost=260. SO DAMN EX for a student like me.. mum offered to pay la.. but i dun wan la .. cos is my own problem. and i still kept the teeth with me.. haha intending to make ornaments using them!! WHO WANTS? Can place order now!first come, first sell basis.

and the dentist told me to pluck one at a time.. but i refused.. i wan to have it done once and for all.. and he warned me if any complications occurred.. he dun wan to bear responsibilities.. i am thinking.. as long as i do what u tell me , can liao right.. it isnt an op.. what complications will there be? and convenience sake, it is me who is not convenient ma.. so i just ask him to go ahead have 2 molar extracted.

lose a lot of blood.. a bit giddy.. maybe that can help me reduce weight ... just like blood donations.. or is it gain wt???! i am not too sure!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Hzd3D_lP6U

Whao.. finalli found her MV for Like Yesterday. Enjoy!

oh yeah.. went to aloy's hse today for hse warming with Jean, Jesica and WanJun. The hse is quite big and i think is nice! 3 storeys.. but all the levels r decorated simply.. yet r comfy. We all Lao yu sheng with his uni and sec sch frens. saw his 'lengendary' xiao mei who looks pretty in real person too! and the food he catered r A LOT.. and VERY YUMMY! haha. i onli helped myself to 2 servings before me and the 3 girls proceed to 3rd storey to play cards, while aloy went ard entertaining guests. haha... and we started to gamble after which.. played 'in between' which is intro-ed by my bro today(and i won from him 10 bucks while gambling between him and me...T_T but....) ... haha.. and one advice to all gamblers..GREED KNOWS NO BOUNDARY.. the boundary is reached when u have really no money. haha cos i gambled all my 40 plus dollars in my wallet away! keep losing to jean (who won nearly 50.. ) and jesica(think 15 dollars won).. then when i lose 10.. i will keep hoping to earn the 10 back... and this led to 20 dollars loss.. and the cycle repeated till all my money in wallet is gone.. lol.. and i shld pay jesica back for the gift we bought before we gambled! LOL, cos after i lost everything, i realised i have no $ to pay her back.. in the end need her to drive me to somewhere to draw $ to return her. the point is if i returned her, i may cut down on my loss, given my 'undying' gambling attitude tonight. ok.. tml is last day of CNY.. after CNY no more gambling, as usual!

and we waited for jean's dad to come fetch her , before driving wanjun home(she is neighbour of aloy). yup nice gathering today.. like it when our clique increase from jean , aloy and me to the 3 of us plus wan jun and jesica.. lol.. realised that we r all still the same.. just like when we were in pri 5 n 6.. but everyone of cos changed here and there

wanjun used to be a bit blur and nervous at times .. but now she is still a bit blur.. but she is v capable!
aloy is still the same.. lol.. all the while the same guy who talks the same way, wear his clothe tag the same way, and even walk the same way! A true person to everyone.
jean is as confident as ever. the cute little girl then till now. haha.. but now she is no more an icy princess like last time. a v capable girl too!
jesica is as open to chats as before. the most approachable girl in class( i guess) and now she is also v capable!

well, the 3 auditors, and a future computer engineer plus a dunno- what- i- wan- to- be person.. shall see how we change in the following years.. heard jean is going to work overseas for 2.5 years in aus soon. and jesica is gg to work in uk for 1.5 years soon too.. doubt gathering will be as much like now liao.. hope can still maintain in contact..

a week passed.. and so quickly. been a super ultra boring week. but then it is becos of the boredom that i went to lib everyday after work. lol. read finish the encyclopedia on animals. and borrowed a NEW book purchased by the lib! it is those comic book on X-men. in that book.. magneto is missing.. cos he is dead.. eh.. and he is simply killed by some lousy beings.. so dumb.

and met YL there too. just didnt see MJ for a long while. Been finding the latest book by Neils Humphrey. he is leaving SG for Aus. hmm.. ok la.. but will kind of miss the columns by him in Today.

These days keep going to do survey at macpherson area. hmm.. v slow lei.. been there for 3 days this week but due to rain.. we could onli complete 2 buildings. one more day for next week.. hope can finish it. anyway, the client's employee who followed us on the 2nd and 3rd days is quite nice. he talked little.. but do quite a lot. good employee.

A Level results r out.. hahaha
and as usual students who did exceptionally well were interviewed.. and as usual, some of them said things which were too to-the-script. ya la.. maybe they realli meant so.. but as a reader.. i cant help but thinking that this is a mini oscar award ceremony held for them. hahaz.

today no bball. sux. ok la.. i mean i need bball.. sian lei.. all cannot after kester gone back Aus.. ZU always sick last minute.. CG involved in soka, the NUS ppl all in nerding mode... and WB and LIANG r MIA personnel who did OTs on sat. and MR. alexandra as usual.. his finger hasnt heal yet, despite a one year break from bball. omg.. i am realli scared that the bball team will be dispersed. considering many of them r either putting more time on their GFs, work n studies.
not say that it is wrong to put effort on these la.. but 1 week 3-5 hrs.. is it a lot to ask for? and some can come alternate week ma.. haiz.. i dun care also la.. some i can see they r putting in effort to come (like ME!!) some... simply bochap like that(like .... U lor.. yes u... u ask urself :'AM I BOCHAP?') The answer is deep in ur heart.

Been singing nonstop nowadays.. walking, bathing, working, sleeping, eating....