If u disliked me, now u could have a good laugh at my stupidity

I have this super negative tot. i think i am a pain in people's neck. and i tried to appease them for being such pain, by apologising. i am sure that this wont work.. and they may find me a bigger pain and may even laugh at me for being such weirdo or weakling. but then.. sometimes i really dun know why i did so much.

ah... wish i can disappear from earth at this moment. but i just cant isolate myself.. i am v scared of loneliness, u know.. being outcasted, being ignored...

Grrr... damn... maybe i shld just keep my mouth shut now.. so everyone will have a better life.