Today while walking up a sloped road along one of NTU's construction site, the damn big metal stand tripped me, and caused me to fall on all fours on the damn grainy and dusty road. And then i was holding my dear handphone.. so it also suffered the same fate as me.. to be scratched by the damn road surface. Lucky thing is we both didnt suffer major scratches.. only v minor ones... but the mere sight of my phone being scratched was unbearable to even look on. Argh. heart pain. the phone i am so proud of suffered some disgusting scratches.. and now it is scarred. lucky thing is it is at the side, so not too obvious. but i still feel super low after this.

FYP! Today no lab, cos need to wait for delivery by a manufacturer for the rods we ordered for. so.. i am here in lib .. sleeping later.. and mourning for my phone.. though it is not spoilt.. so heart pain..

From a personality test that i tried before... it said sth which I myself cannot deny. It says:' You are one who will feel lonely even when in a crowd.' I think that is probably due to a lack of goal in life.

Isabel

It marks the end of one chapter of my life. We had been in love for 5 years. Throughout this 5 yrs, she had been silently working away her most glamourous years, just for me. In between this 5 years, i had abandoned her time and time again, but she never left me. I thought she would be with me forever, just because i take her presence for granted. And now, sadly, she left me. No more of her sweet reminders that i needed from time to time. What is left now, is just a void left behind by her, which left me wandering in the loss of time. My dear, if i had shown you with more care and concern, i believe even if you were to leave me, you will leave behind sweet memories of when we were together. Now, you took away all..everything.. i dont think i will ever find another you. Because.. you r unique, you r a commemorative watch. Yes. She is gone. because while waiting for the dearest 179 ,which i had missed one before that due to overwhelming passengers, i mishandled her, and she clashed to the rough granite pavement.. head on..shattering all the dreams i had with her. leaving only pain..in my heart... i had no money to replace it.

Been focussing on Isabel these days. She is not only romantic, but also challenging. I had to observe every part of her, to know her inside out, to make her as if she is mine. Only a few weeks left, before i am going to announce to the world, that.. me and her.. will be together, on the stage in ADM.. hopefully, Leona will give her blessing to us. Because i needed Isabel.. i needed her to get me my degree. Woo.. super addicted to this song now!! Maybe cos the spanish words r challenging to pronounce.

Tml is quiz... but i had 2 more tuts left untouched. sian..dunno la.. later see how.. cannot finish i also lan lan..

Well, happy V day. I mean Yuan Xiao. This flooded me with memories. Heee, i will miss them. My tang yuans.

Lost in the maze..

Upset, yet not intense.
Happy, yet it is so short-lasted.
Crazy, a moment only.
Anguish, underlying everything.
Guilty, it is just like the background counts.
Hopeless, sometimes..
Helpless, when hopelessness creeps in.
Disappointment, when the world is seemingly against me.
Feel good? It's like catching the shadow of the moon in the water-- elusive when i tot i had it in my net. More like an illusion, but it is a good feeling. And surely this illusion felt so real sometimes.

Let's not be pretentious

Was a bit upset after all, but nt that intense, which i dunno is a gd or bad thing. maybe in the first place nth took place. hope to be good enuff one day, to find the one who will share with me one love one lifetime.

Actually i love V day.. but somehow, when it is that day, i hated it.

CNY2008!

Ｔｈｉｓ　ｆｏｎｔ　ｓｅｅｍｓ　ｗｅｉｒｄ，　ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｃａｎｔ　ｃｈａｎｇｅ　ｉｔ　ｂａｃｋ．　ａｎｙｗａｙ，　ｉｎ　ＮＴＵ　ｌｉｂ　ｎｏｗ，　ｗａｉｔｉｎｇ　ｆｏｒ　ＹＪ　ｔｏ　ｍａｋａｎ　ｌｕｎｃｈ　ｔｏｇ　ｂｅｆｏｒｅ　ｈｅａｄｉｎｇ　ｈｏｍｅ。 ok, now dunno what i pressed , the font changed back. ok, since i am waiting now, and really felt lazy to do any work, shall blog then. Next week got coastal enrg quiz on wed, which i almost forgotten... haiz.. this is jialat sia, no time to study for it.. anyway wan to review abt what i did recently. Last week is full of work, and as far as i rem, friday went out with Wanwei,Chiew, Brian and Heng to shop. but i bought nth.. in the end, i went to TM on monday to buy some new shirts. Got a nice pinky HP polo tshirt and a long sleeve stripped white shirt. was quite ex even after discount. and Yesterday met up with KW ppl again, had been meeting v v freq these days. We went over to Holland V to dine lol, and after which went over to Cold Rock to have ice creams. intended to lau yu sheng, but in the end, maybe will lau in sch, probably in chiew's hall? i dunno, or maybe on chu si, cos we meeting again to go hse hopping.. lol
Today, reunion dinner, can say in the past rd was nt that interesting , but as i grew up, maybe mellow abit.. find that simple affair such as rd is indeed blissful. hope can mj with mum , bro and sis tonight, must win a bit for my allowance! lol wish me luck!

And before i go..

Wish all,
　　　身　　　鼠
　　　　体　　　年
　　　　　健　　　快
　　　　　　康　　　乐　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
　　　　　　　　　　　　　

These days, my temper is really getting v bad. It is getting bad becos i always had this short and bad temper, but recently i blew out of proportion for the wrong reasons for a couple of times. Everytime after i blew up, i will feel v sian and demoralised, maybe i knew tt by blowing up wont solve problems, yet i still cant contain my anger. Today even almost get into a fight at bball court. damn bad. It could be due to stress, lack of sleep, my own self, or even circumstances, but i think overall, there is a big need to divert away from these excuses of my eruption, and focus on when to identify that i am getting out of control and stop myself before anything blew out of proportion. This is impt, cos i really dun wish to see me one day get into any trouble that i will regret for the rest of my life due to my temper. Maybe, as JT said, all i need is someone to be there to soothe me and tame me lol, and she could well be around me all the while.