31st March 2005

To seek for forgiveness from others may be difficult but it is not a tough thing afterall. Cos many people will readily forgive if it is a minor matter. I think to seek forgiveness from my own self seems the toughest. Some matter i just couldnt forgive myself, and i actually carried a burden of such for 8 years. 8 years! Sometimes when i think back, i regretted doing that, but the situation is not under my control as i was too young then--14 yr old--to understand certain things. By not forgiving myself seems the only viable way to punish myself. I couldnt find any way for myself for that mistake/sin. But it has been so tiring in this 8 years, somehow, it led to to a life i wouldnt want to have. But here i am, and i have decided that instead of just living in misery, why not i live happier? Life is so short, i may leave the world anytime. Leaving behind so much misery and regrets for not living the fullest of my life. 8 years of self-blaming and non-forgiveness is really enough to entirely punish myself for that incident. I feel so relieved after blogging here for this, yet so tired. Maybe should take a break after exams to really do things which i have enjoyed under no pressure from self-blaming anymore.Yes, i have forgiven myself, entirely.

29th March 2005

Yesterday didnt finish studying for Life Sci, so today skipped lecs to finish studying all the notes at SBS. Well, scored average for the test(28 marks out of 40) and was fairly satisfied wif that, though believe i could do better. heard a revision note is being uploaded last nite, and some Qns actually came out from there.. but who would expect that! was busy rushing thru notes then.. today studied alone in Lib 1.. and i didnt know there is a 5th storey till today only. haha went to study in this SUPER COLD discussion rm. and in the end i couldnt concentrate, so left off for lib 2, where i just touched on some Econs topics. On the way back, there were these 2 people, unrelated to each other, on the verge of breaking up in their respective relationships through cell phones. The first was a guy, couldnt tahan him, cos he was like hmm.. i cannot stand his look. but he was like so lousy, keep saying sorry to that ger,but seems so unsincere.. i tot he was trying to coax the ger over the other side of the line.. the second is a lady who cried while talking on the phone, i saw her when i was alighting, but keep looking at her(cos i tot she might need tissue, cos she was crying so badly). But everyone was looking at her too. and interesting enuff, both of them said the same line:"Ok, u dont want me, cos i am not good enuff." haha. so low self esteemed. oops. i didnt mean to laugh at them. if i were in their shoe, i might even say more low self esteemed lines.. like hmm.. " U cant leave me, i am afraid no one would want me any more, WAHHHH. " -dumb-

Material Science

Today had the mat sci test and tomolo got the life sci test. haha. oh. today is such a plain day. nothing to write. haha. think must add spices to my life.

27th of March

Did nothing special today. btw today meant yeaterday.The onli hightlight is lan-gaming wif the WC3 gang again. very enjoyable session. oh yar.. today went ard tampines looking for a court. but either they were empty or they were under renovations. but in the end did a set of 2BX. whole body aching..haha. heard ICT got IPPT(and easier to pass than go booked IPPT), sigh.. but i tink i cant even run a silver timing now.. tink will register for IPPT in intersem. or i will register in Dec, then take 2 IPPT in a shot. haha. but by then i should be running 13 mins? haha.. no lar..shouldnt be so slow.. ok aim to achieve 1030 then climb back to 945 to 915 and to 850!

Good Friday

Just heard another MRT suicide case. I dislike these type of news. Especially since the "trend" of suiciding at Stations started. Also The Air In singapore is becoming so polluted.. think i am becoming sick. stupid haze!! Those fires in WEst Malaysia and Indonesia should be dealt wif fast ma. what r the authorities Doing? ARGGG. THe people r suffering!!
Cant see everything clearly. bad sia. anyway, heard of this news that those wif myopia can go for neurotherapy kind of treatment to get rid of their illness. Only for those wif ard 200 degrees lar. I tot is a good news.. but i am a 500+ .. sigh.. when can we(the very myopic ppl)get to receive such treatments to regain our eyesight.. laser op is our onli way out?
Just went to airport again. yeah! Like that place. good ambience and clean washrooms.And came baq seeing mama, bro and sis playing triangular mahjong. think they have been playing for near 10 hours le. yesterday they also played . actualli they had been playing ever since new year till now. ARGGG. a gambling den! i am the onli innocent guy ard in the hse.. my dad is not cos though he didnt play mahjong. but he is played 4D and shares ! all gamblers. haha.

2am

Yes. now is 2 am. though i was very tired, i still dun wan to sleep. reading thru my fren's blogs. hmm.. so many perspectives, and so interesting.. maybe i could start to realise that people might not be thinking in the way i do-- and our perspectives realli differ! So so interesting. and the recent topic, i observed, is exam.. exam is coming! That is sian, i wan to look beyond the exam period, but seems like the word EXAM is getting nearer and hence blocking my view. Hols seem sooo far away.
today got these social problems quizzes. Haha, yeah. i got full marks for a quiz and 88 for another! so happi! Before that we went to NIE to have lunch. Glad that ShunLi and RuiMin came along coz it gives me a good feeling that these guys still remember us! Talked abt army stuffs during lunch wif them. ICT is coming, and as Misty says.. must face that positively. Then i went for the econs tutorial and the next tutorial will be the last. Will miss the 3 people, Julin, Melvin and Yao Lin i knew in this mod, dunno lei, but we seemed to get along well!
Yup, went to tutor today. but i was SUPER tired and dun rem wat i said to QiHao. Think i told him:" i am very tired and couldnt teach any more".. but i was damn brainless to tell him:" Hey dun tell ur mom that!".. Talk before i think.. anyway my brain is not wif me then. left it in NTU, Lecture Rm 25 since the last lecture of the day. Then when his mom talked to me.. i was like " huh? oh .. what? huh? orh.. ok.. *what? U said u wan to increase my pay to 500 dollars a month? and reduce to juz 2 lessons, 1 hr each lesson?*" -- dreaming then-- think i heard wrongly..
And my sis finished her exams today. finalli graduated from Poly! Congrats! and she brought her frens, who r sisters, over to play mahjong. Wah.. we chatted till 12 plus before this pair of sis decided to go have supper before walking home..Anyway i hae forgotten what i wan to blog.. so juz fill in all the above. Oh yar.. i wanted to say Good Friday to everyone.. or is it Happy Good Friday?

Looking for part time jobs

i am Looking for part time day work for Month of May. so if anybody got any lobang pls leave a msg. Got ICT and intersem course, so couldnt do temporary job. Ok, best is flyer-distribution or those door-to-door or block-to-block type. Thanks!

22nd of March--A tribute to Mr Looi's dedication to TPJCians

Heard of the bad news that my former Fmaths teacher, Mr Looi, had passed away. heard he had cancer for a long while.. maybe it is a good form of relief for him.. maybe not for his family.. i remember he is a good tempered person and also easy going teacher. Take charge of basketball team, though i am not in the team, but often see him ard on court. though some would say his lecs are boring, but now even if they wan more of it, there is none anymore. no more of his lecs for ever... yup.. though he is a little long winded, but the aim is to let us understand by slowly explaining. I remember the chapter on permutation and combination. he repeated the lec twice for our sake, cos we said that the topic is very tough. and he obliged. And me and LiangJing would always imitate how he speaks and acts last time.. sigh.. how unpredicable one's life is. and how short can one live.. must cherish every moment i have , from now on, more than how i cherish in the past.

21st of March

Gotten my GE which is the birds' appreciation course. quite excited abt it. hope it wouldnt be a disappointment. haha. next time i will be able to teach u all abt those Birds and Bees..haha . ok. my damn computer is still in slacking mode. shall see wat i can do to motivate it to work better. anyway, Zu and HK , the XX blog i recommended hor, suspects she got a sponsorship from a T shirt company lei... advertising on her blog. Check out on March 19th Newpaper. Not that sure .. seems like her.

20th of March

Was a good or bad day for me?
Not too sure..my computer failed on me and i suspected it having some hidden virus wreaking havoc.. and the whole of my Sunday morning is to deal with the spoilt computer till around 230. Sigh.. though the tuition was postponed, but i still didnt do any work..wasted my morning. Damn. but i still managed to do some tutorials at airport. a lot of students there too. glad i was not the only one ard. and Cg came terribly late.. tot he would come at 4 -5 plus... he came at 7 plus! man! u realli break my record of being 2 hours late! well done.. HK and Co. will say.. nevertheless,he still did some stuffs and we discussed maths together and tok some rubbish and there.. Can see we were shagged by the sat activities.. to organiser : must org bball frequently! else recovery time for following sessions in future will be long.

19th of March

Today is a packed day for me. Morning i attempted this life sci tutorial. and after which i rushed to lib to return books and see if there's any book to borrow. Then rushed to meet the basketball people. I was late again. argg.. and they all said i was fatter than before. And i am wondering where is the former battalion No. 1 runner? Gone.. after ORD. gained more than 10 kg since entering NTU. Slack huh? people asked. No lar.. when i feel stressed i will eat a LOT really..haha. Yup and we played a few games of our own, before some kids wan to challenge us. Then played wif them and when i was getting used to the fatigue, i sprained, a minor strain to my left leg. Then i thought it is ok as i can still rely on my right leg to hang on.. then i tripped and twisted my right foot. and my damn chronical backache is all the while there.Seems pathetic right?After which we went to LJS to eat. And we missed that Bedok branch, cos it has been half a year since we went there. and we chatted there, mostly of the JC times(again.. we always talked abt how we met each other. over and over again..). and about how Hk stripped in front of his whole class, unknowingly. how we were caught by Commando Lee of playing in sch U, how we escaped him, how Zuyao is trapped at the TPJC low wall, and the police came.., The slut and the long-legged school bella. and rebecca! whahaha. So fun then. also talked about Eric who now is in USA, Suppawong who is now in i dun know where, Japan?.. and Kester in Australia. and how we went to A n E at SGH.. and how i was punched(oops) and how we smoked our way thru to escape those hooligans in SRJC. and also the 30 men basketball session in TPJC after school.. and the basketball tournament in TPJC, how JT faked his charging foul, how super-sub came about.. and SO MUCH MORE.
ME and CG took 168 back to Tampines to meet the Andy and Hanlip. But Hanlip was late and we were late too! and we bumped into him at Bedok. so took the bus together. Then played for quite a while till 9 plus.. haha.. then went for AAR. Such days r good after exams.. too bad couldnt commit totally in such activities, cos at the baq of mind still has this exam pressure.

18th of March

Heee. today i was early for lab! whao ho... haha. this is really very rare. and today had drawing, and i finished the drawing the earliest in class! And this is the first time we(me and zhijia) handed in earlier than most of the rest, and so we had a vlonger break, when we joined The People for lunch. And the 2 hrs of lecs which followed was torturous.. i slept almost one hour of it.. tired after lunch. and after which i went to Bedok, but i also had no aim so i went there for ard 40 mins before heading home.. felt a waste of time.. cos i realli dunno why i alighted there.
Oh yes tomolo got bball! haha, make sure those going be earli wor.. =)

17th of March

Today was glad that i turned up early for lec today. and everything is the same every thurs, but on e train baq witnessed something. there was this guy who i thought was very rude and not gracious at all. A young mom wif her bubbly little daughter sat beside that guy and the kid was on her mom's thighs. and the kid was those type of kid who asked a lot of qns and also swinging her legs in joy. But this guy was irritated by the kid cos she accidentally kicked him.. and he actually slammed his palm on his hard cover book. But this mom didnt receive his signal.. and the little kid kicked his leg again.. and in the end used his hand to push away that kid's leg. I was shocked and that mom was stunned. haha. and she apologised to that guy, but he din respond. - shakes head- haha.

Wanna do hmwk today. but too slack le. so now playing games!

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Sometimes, i will just have the thought that not knowing wat is happening ard us is actually better, cos somethings when u got to know, esp when it is bad, the tendency is that u will get worried over it, or will hu2 si1 luan4 xiang3. As it goes, ignorance is bliss.

today was pretty early for first lecture! though i was late by 10 mins, but think was earlier than before le. Well, managed to stay awake throughout the 4 hours of lecs, but did fell asleep half-way, but luckily huiyu woke me up during social prob lecs, and shun li woke me up during econs lec. haha.. On the way baq, met Kai Xin and her fren, so took train baq. today had an appt, but was damn late. and the person meeting me was quite pissed off, i can see that haha.. sorry..

decided to workout this week, hmm. so shall declare here. if i am caught lazing ard.. hmm.. then tick me off.

late once again.

again. i was late, how to kick tis habit? i woke up and silenced my alarm haha, then went to back to sleep, and woke up when e sky was pretty bright(that is why i woke up).

bad bad.. this is becoming very bad.. wat if it is exam.. hmm.. scared..

anyway later got this maths tutorial. now just eaten lunch alone. cos junzhao and ashu went q-ing for the guang liang tix and liqing and linda went baq. also didnt get ruimin along cos i wan to eat fast and come to use com to print notes.

now is 745pm and i am still in sch lib 2 T_T
no choice.. need to stay back to study else go home sure slack.. and i cant catch up wif some subjects le.. must buck up haha.. anyway stayed in lib1 but i fell asleep at 2 plus.. so decided to eat sth before switching to lib 2 to study. haha.. but i was damn slow in understanding my notes.. so took so long to just comprehend 2 sets of notes. but slack in between a lot.. read comics, look here and here. dunno stare in the wall for wat.. look at gers.. hmm.. think of soccer and stupid stuffs. anyway, today i saw a fren in the lib, but didnt call out his name, so just stare at him from my table.. and it was strange.. he looked up and notice me.. is it true that we will feel it when others are staring at us? just like yawning, is it contagious? i tried before to yawn after i see some people yawn.. but cannot.. think it is not true.. heard is becos ur brain will remind u to take in more oxygen when u r tired and when u see others yawn.. ur body will react IF u r tired by taking in more oxygen. and thus u yawn.. but this is dunno where i heard or read from..

14th of March

Haha today was early for tutorial. yeah. and listened to the lec till so attentiveli.. till i actualli got veri hungri.. and after lec..took train wif huiyu baq and i alighed at Bedok.. and went to central makan first, before going to the library to studi. On e wae baq bought some soon kueh .."yummilicious". then watched tis channel 8 drama at 9.. like e show tink e show got good plot.. haha.. nothing special happened, and it is a good thing for today. ok going to play games now.

now i realised

exam is this near! very very near.. and i am still in hols mood.. bah...REALLY ! sigh...and recently keep skipping lecs. cos overslept.. i am really telling myself to relax..cos i am thinking this is the last stage of education le and i have realli put in soooo much efforts before coming into uni.. it is time to relax this little bit.. but i am going overboard. and isnt the last lap of the run mean that i should put in my best shot? but when thinking of so many years ahead , i cant possibly biah for so looong.. like last sem .. got sick for 3 of the papers. very scared that i will fall sick at the crucial moment again.. it is then lucky i can scrap thru wif computing.. then i was feeling so sick, i couldnt finish reading the last few chpts.. and couldnt do half the paper..
maybe u would feel that" hey koh u r quite hardworking now", but the fact is i normally cant focus , so didnt absorb so much like the rest.. so i must put in double effort..
ok shall do some maths now.. later going to sch le.. sianz..

Sunday afternoon

Went to Air port.. haha .. i cant believe it! i actualli travel to e air port to studie.. that is a good sign. engine started.. and managed to complete a little reading.. cos reached there ard 4pm.. so many of e people there r going home.. and i just came.. super demoralising... but still.. i managed to read up till ard 730pm..then walked a bit .. a lot of people there.. haha.. as usual i looked at people , my pastime! then saw Edward Chew.. and his 2 young and cute daughters..didnt know his kids r still so young.. and his wife.. haha.. but didnt greet him along e way.. scared he cant recog me. last time i went to air port i saw Mrs Varella.. tis time Ed Chew.. haha.. that was very qiao. anyway damn hot todae... haha almost burnt myself under the sun. piang... and juz now had a brief chat wif kester at Australia and hmm.. to who may tis concerns.. hey dont be dejected.. we will always be there 4 u. haha. juz take things easier.. try to ba. u knoe i am refering to u.. Yes .. u..

tuition

ooh it is hols again.. for my tuition kid.. haha it is the starting of his week and i promised not to give a lot of hmwrk, but in e end i still gave a lot of hmwrk.. haha coz i dont wan him to slack too much. haha and he got his report book. well his maths and science r pretty good(i teach maths , sci and eng) but eng is pretty average so i am quite happie.. haha.. i tell him muz buck up for his humanities cos he just passed for all humanities subjs. anyway, also chatted wif him abt army.. cos he asked after i set a compo title. haha. anyway we always chat a lot.. we also chatted abt games too. haha. becoming more like frens, no wonder he is not listening to me that much .
but think he had grown up a lot since he joined NCC.. haha..that is good.

Suntec Chaos

Today went to suntec in e evening wif Cg, Hk and sniper leong. Was so packed there.. and i actualli got very dizzy till even now..after squeezing ard there.. haiz.. i cant go to crowded place.. anyway, wanted to look for MP3 player, but was too dizzy to even walk ard.. so in e end came out emptyhanded.. juz accompanied kuang to look for laptop. then we went for dinner and juz jalan ard bugis area. Hk bought a bag for Qian Ni. whao, ali baba bag in a smaller version. but quite nice.. and on e way home.. actualli encountered 3 baby crams in a single cabin.. so crowded.. and they were wailing away.. haha so cute.. can see e govt policy is actualli taking place! But recently , i did a small observation.. the no. of pregnant mums and babies i encountered actualli increased over e months after the policy implementation. Maybe e incentives were too irresistable..and maybe sporeans r realli a dutiful lot who respond to e country in times of need like this..can this be considered part of Total defence//
Actualli dunno wat and why i am blogging though i had not much to say.. juz wan to write to improve Eng ba .. maybe.. or just plain bored... or juz realli keeping it as a diary..dunno..sian..juz hope the saturdae will last longer.. tomolo still need to studie.. wan to go air port to mug(act to sleep there) but damn lazie..Sooooooo far.

course choosing

recently very very devoted to writting blog.. think good way to help me rem things.. else i will tend to forget, memory low.. anyway it is a good way to improve Eng! i ll try 2 find value in everything i do..so tis is not a bad pt. (i tink so) and today.. yar today is fri.. almost tot is sat... and after going for the streaming talk.. now considering between MPE/MAE, CEE, ENE(actualli tot i ll choose tis course almost w/o hesitation at first) but now.. seems like a tough course.. cos i am not an A chem student, also never study bio before.. and tis course is concentrating at technologies of e industry. tink in e end may choose MPE again(my veri first choice before i choose e club) sigh.. engineering is realli not easi fac. a lot of stuffs .. so technical.. juz feel like getting to other school(like buz or NIE) at times.. but to tink abt it.. eng is veri versatile and realli learnt a lot of things as compared to my other frens, so everything got its goods and bads(they r nouns in econs terms.. haha.. i misused them.)
anyway days r pressing nearer to Exams! engine muz start soon.

11th of March

Today is realli a very tiring day.. cos onli slept for 3 plus hrs yesterday, cos i need to rush the report to be handed in today. anyway finished it and felt a burden off my shoulder.. and today's lab was quite interesting, i think.. like to see how materials react when facing stress and loads.. and fell asleep during lecture after lunch wif The People. couldnt "tahan".. speaking of Singlish.. makes me rem Melissa, who always criticise people using that in English sentences.. last time will be careful not to mention ani form of Singlish in front of her.. and so English became pretty good then. anyway later gonna attend a seminar on course choosing and hope that i wont fall asleep later..haiz.. so tired now.. but there is no where in school to lie down to sleep. Should open a one stop sleeping store next time(if i struck toto) and mentioned this before to Hk and Cg will be a pretty new industry..and maybe will get young Enterpreneur award haha.. or OEA.. if i became very old then struck toto. The tot of having a business is once again "inspired" by the weird business plan by Hy and Zj.. seriously think their plan need to rethink a lot of times before realli putting into action. well shall keep myself awake ABAP..zzzzz

Exam drawing near

The days to exams are nearing again. but it seems that i am not feeling prepared for it. must realli put in some efforts.. also realised that my english is getting lousier day by day.. haha.. no GP.. no english lessons.. of cos lar! plus this singlish accented environ i am living in! BUT I LIKE IT !! HAHA!! * getting mad*

Today there is this weird old man on train.. met him on the way to sch and i was standing as there's a lot of people and all seats are being occupied.. and he stood behind me, we were facing oppo directions, back to back, and he was leaning back like this, him--> /l<-- me.. piang.. and he keep brushing my bag aside, when he was the one who intrude my private space.. and he was trying to challenge me by puhing his way back.. wan to elbow him.. but cannot lar.. so many people.. so i endure till others move away and i quickly went to take their spaces . hmm. i dont want to appear on newspaper as an elderly abuser haha..

today went to sch early but didnt go for life sci lec as i have not finish my social prob material for a test in the afternoon.. so went to lib to study and then meet the people to go NIE to have lunch. saw kiat there but tooo far so didnt call out.. also saw Sgt Benjamin(the HQ one.. not the Charlie hypocrite).. and he had forgotten i am the RSM PA.. and i need to remind him..happie to see him ard.... and after that went for this econs tut. A funnie incident happened-- Yaolin is being "trapped" down by this ger by the name of Shu Jun.. and me and Melvin were kind enuff to let them enjoy their own world in the corner.Then after which went for social prob..and i had got 80% and 50% correct for both quizes.. quite bad for the 50% cos we were to drop 2 of the lowest score from all quizes.. and i had got to accept a 60% which i tot was bad enuff.... then after which went baq wif Li Qing.. but due to some reasons... had to take a shuttle bus and switch back to 179 and we met her sister who is in mbs haha.. and tot she was nice looking: )
On the way back met Xue Lin and chatted wif her for a while-- met so many people today, which realli good. later still need to rush the Formal Report for tomolo..havnt finish yet..

9th of March

Was early again today. haha. that is a good sign. early birds catch good worms.. but i still almost sleep in lec.. esp in econs lec..was seeing doubles. anyway received my social probs results. not too bad.. 75%, 65% and 90%. tomolo got a few more quizes.. must do well. anyway tomolo is mushy Zuyao's bdae.. but we r not celebrating for him.. cos he got Joyce.. who is soooooo sweeeeet to him... haha..surely will give him a very wonderful bdae. Anyway. life is getting very monotonuous... hmmm.. thinking of joining some activities..haha.. so can see more stuffs and meet more people.. but in reality i cant.. cos of sch schedule..
anyway today viewed a film abt Zambia.. and felt that we r realli very fortunate in Spore here.. no doubt we r under tremendous stress, but at least we can attend school , do what we like and enjoy life.. but the people over there cant even attend school , which they yearn to go.. and need to work to support family. think muz be very glad rite.. haha.. anyway, now i am in school and soon i will be sleeping on the train later.
Hmm anyway, last sem i notice a gal from NUS who always board at Tanah Merah.. but nowadays didnt see her anymore..just feel curious lar.. no special reason.. cos i very kpo type of people.. like to know a lot of unnecessary stuffs.haha. ok shall log off. just feel travelling very tiring ,will feel good if Singapore is round.....

Chosen One

I have made my choice for GE..totally funny courses.. have to consider my ICT timing too. First choice is birds' appreciation, second is world of magic in world of singer which will teach people how to sing.. a very choir-ic course.. and last choice is ecotourism.. which introduces spore's natural habitats, which r also e places of interests. so funny. hope can get into one of those .. haha. but after the courses will be going ICT. Must train up then else later need to carry bridges or wat again.. or even worse.. jerry cans.. kaoz.. shouldnt be hor.. i once carry jerry can plus SBO and my weapon and walked for 2 daes..think now i cant even do that le. All that will add up to near 30kg.. baa... think shouldnt be that bad bah...haha..*self-deceiving*.

8th of March

Today i woke up evry early at 615am and i was early for school! Finally! Haha but i fell asleep during lecture.... dotz.. then went to eat lunch wif Anshu and Junzhao. haha then the maths test which followed after the break.. haiz... i was quite certain will be testing on tutorial 3.. so i studied the whole of that tutorial.. then went to class.. realised everyone there knew that the test was on Tut 4..but i dont even knew anyone there.. sigh.. then too bad lor.. was stunned once more for maths. couldnt perfect the answer, but should be at least half correct ba.. sigh.. i was really down on luck.. ARGHH.. dunno whether this sem could do well or not... sigh...
On a happier note..i was feeling good these days. that was worth mentioning. haha. cos i have been through the lowest point of my life , and i am certain, things will only become better. haha. Cheers for me!

Anyway, planning to do GE for intersem.. but got ICT.. sigh may not be able to take le.. that goes my Ecotourism, birds appreciation and Tao reasonings.

A normal day

Today is a normal day. woke up early.. chatted on msn.. then went to sch.. and then came home and now i am here.. wan to choose GE.. but also wan to work.. but think will put studies in first place ba. haha. i will maybe choose psychology, speaking with confidence and yoga ba. haha.. maybe also birds appreciation.. not sure.. but i will not choose biz, lang and any very dense modules. haha so any recommendation? must give me wor..

A kind soul

Today went to mug again, as usual, but before i went into the Tampines central outlet, i saw a little boy ran past me crying.. and i knew he was lost since no adults was ard him! and so i followed him..(he was running very fast) and can see he was quite scared and panicky.. and when he didnt manage to find his mum/dad/both.. i stopped him and asked him whether he is lost and asked for his mum's HP no. Luckily his mum did e rite thing-- asking him to memorise her no.--and the next min i was calling his mom.. wif a mom and daughter besides us watching what i am trying to do wif that kid(sigh... i am a good guy lei).. and when i got through her phone, and asked for her location, she said she was not sure where she was and how to get to my side.. sigh... so i had to lead that crying kid to his mom... before reaching i told him his mom is at Mac.. and he ran off without saying bye bye to find his mama.. haha.. and i can see from a dist the kid and his mom.. so dont bother to go over.. but his mom waves to me though.. haha.. then i wave back too(actualli want to ask her to treat me to a Mac meal.. i dont mind happy meal, as i was broke.. but didnt) and so after that went to study till 9pm before walking ard central. Then after which went home and talked to Misty on ta hp. very slack day.. haha.. and tiring due to the morning soccer.. school tomolo again. cheer up everybody!

Sunny Sunday

Today woke up very early at 8 and went to give QiHao tuition.. Cos today i wanna play soccer wif my bro and his frens so pushed the tuition till so early. haha but i gave him tuition till 1130.. both of us were damn tired(think too early) and we both couldnt concentrate well.. haha.. then rushed over to the court beside Shell (oppo St Hilda's) to play soccer.. there were some misunderstanding.. and the outsider team quarrelled wif us.. but they dont dare to be rough(cos we r of more people and we all looked much stronger than them) and they left thereafter.. (anyway it is our fault lar) and so we dominated that court. haha. Yeah i scored a goal! after i preyed on my bro and snatched his ball and passed to Jin Hua and we 1-2 and i ended up scoring one really nice goal(in my eye) haha! then really ran a lot and endure under the noon sun.. i am e onli one who resist to suntan lotion , so i ended up very red-faced. but was damn fun and tiring.. haha. i also created one for Jin Hua.. (unintentional long ball to him--to others actualli) but he ended up scoring a tap-in! nice combi! we then went for some beverages before we took a ride(the rest left earlier on , left 6 of us) in Ernest's car(squeezi). Then now after a bath(keep having cramps.. didnt cool down properly) and after having lunch , will be going to meet CG to study again. Hanlip asked for LAN today but i cant make it.. need to study lar.. sorri next time ba. haha. anyway Arsenal won! and Henry gotta a hat-trick! it's such a Good day!

Saturday afternoon

Just back from basketball at fengshen. Shall elaborate to Kester here. Ok. we were ALL late except Zuyao. supposed to meet at 10am. we roughly started at 1030.. CG came the latest.. at about 1145. and we met a Malaysian who was good at almost everything.. and was very skilful.. even CG couldnt match him.. and we played 4 on 3 before CG comes. there were me, kuang, liang vs Zu, kiat, that guy and kiat's fren(frm TPJ too). but keep losing, though kuang did a lot of utility jobs. haha.. rebounds and stuffs.. i wasnt awake yet.. so didnt run so much. then after CG came, we played 4 on 4 then kiat's fren is injured(not by me this time) and shortly after Zu went off wif his dear dear to his hse.. hmm.. Zu is cooking for her.. not sure true or not.. but she came again to distract Zu . haha joking lar...so after Zu's soul is being "hooked" away..his body also gone.. we played a matches of 3 on 3.. wif the usual short and easy passes.. then the whole game became very compressed under basket.. less shooting thereafter.. think everyone is tired. so become more of red paint battle.
After the game, went to eat KFC and just hang ard bedok lib(actually to take our wt there). everyone weighed lighter.. even me.. haha i was still bothered by the 69.9 taken 2 weeks ago.. but this time is 68.0(mind u is after lunch).. hmm.. i am lighter now yay.. haha.. then we went to mac to tok abt Zu and bball..wif out kiat(he went to meet Yimei). damn funny.. hmm.. i mean the bball topics..not ur dear dear, Zu. Then CG and kuang went to Bras Basah(CG acc him to get arts materials).. and i went home. when i took the train. still rem yesterday, when i slept on the train(sitting).. and i suddenly lost balance and tot i was going to fall.. and i slammed the seat next to me wif my palm for balance..damn sleepy.. tot i was going to fell of the seat.. so i realli slammed hard.. and then everyone was starring at me( it was a very quiet cabin and the slam attracted many's attention). so paiseh.... and there were a few aunties who didnt stop giggling(yucks) for a few stations.. so i pretend to sleep. haha. now muz rush my lab report le.. no time to lose.. help.. think muz copy examples le

today

Today is a day i wont forget. but shall not elaborate more. anyway.. skipped physics lec today .. too tired.. so went back to Tampines lib.. where i did my tuitorial then after which went central to walk ard.. quite a slack day. was a somehow disappointing day. but i wont regret wat i did.. onli regret is that i was not good at expressing myself.. hope the skies will be clear once more on Monday..

In school

In school now.. 1220 :and doing the finally touches to the proj. haha. very nicely done! and later going for lunch wif the people. My eye turned sore yesterday so kind ofpainful and cant withstand lecs cos air too dry inside. anyway, today saw a lot of army frens. and realised that onli 2 out of the 3 sections need to go for the ICT. but it is going to be fun man ! slacking ard again. and the tag board is out of service.. so sad.. just used only for a few days. haha just my luck.
1542 :and the econs proj is finally submitted. Relieved~~now waiting for lec again.. must start to read up my notes again. have not been concentrating on studies for a few weeks.. been slacking sigh. so i will start off wif physics. yeah. and now i will have to think which stream i am going to next sem.. think i will choose environmental, CEE or MPE. though i chosen MPE as my club.. think i dun realli like MPE that much after all.. maybe i will go for interest for once. and this is the last time to make a decision on studies before going to working society. But if i choose to go NIE after pursuing Engineering degree, realli hope can teach sports. haiz. not sure next time wan to do WAT..maybe wan to run business wif frens.. ha..actuaali did bring up to them before, but think sporeans r not risk takers. cos too many things to consider , but luckily the recent yrs, govt been encouraging entrepeurships.. else the business industry will be backed by critics full of discouraging words.
Today i am late AGaIN... late is so normal now..used to it le.. haha.
Recently had been starting to rain.. and the haze isnt that bad now.. so hopefully can play more outdoor sports.. missed so many soccer sessions wif my bro's frens.. think they all may forgotten abt me le.. cos they played on Sunday and i teaching tuitions on Sunday.
CG told me that he is not those who takes things easy, haha.. maybe ba.. cos many us, hide a lot of things from our frens.. dont let them know abt out problems.. think the motive is not to bother them coz they r also wif their own probs. but think sometimes can tok and share wat.. nto necessary can help.. but lending a listening ear will realli go a long way into helping others..they sometimes just need to vent their frustrations and unhappiness out.. so must be toleralent and think in their shoes!

Econs Proj

we did our proj till 9pm when the lib closed.. and still havent finish.. so now online still rushing. Just now when melvin is away..Julin came to edit the proj while she took a slight break from her quiz preparation. and while she was doing it, yao lin was giving her suggestions on how to reduce the word count.. and think she was very stressed ,the hair was very messy and she was staring straight.. diff from her normal bubbly and energetic character. and yao lin maybe didnt express himself well.. and they were ON THE VERGE of arguing due to miscomm. and i was so helpless.. wanted to laugh out cos yaolin was then giving her an impression of being heck care of the proj as he was lazing in the arm chair and listening to his CD. very distinct contrast. but luckily all was fine in the end. had to get melvin to come to edit to relieve julin from the proj for her quiz. but think nobody in e grp lazed ard and contribute nothing.. till now.. no argument too.. very nice and in fact fun grp proj.Hope can work wif them next time round. ok shall now go to do some final touch ups to the proj.. wanna sleep soon.. oh almost forgotten.. i was late for school today.. AGAIN>ARGHH!

Doing Econs Now

Now i am in school doing my econs project wif Julin, Melvin and Yao Lin. Haa we r like doing everything in the last minute. Oh no. now problems cropped up.. Julin got her quiz tomolo and she havent study for it cos her tutor informed her last min abt that. so she is quite stressed over the proj and the quiz. melvin went for his religion lec.. and Yao lin skipped his lesson.. now in the lib and everything is not in shape yet. we have been doing it straight after the 230 lec.. hopefully everything turns out well! ok shall go see what i can do now for them!

2nd day of 3rd month of 5th year into this millenium

My bro is wondering when i would stop blogging when the passion for it dies down.. hmm.. though he bet i couldnt go on for at least a year..and i insist i can do it.. but deep down i am wondering if i realli be so enthu to do it for at least a yr. haha.. Now still in school.. today overslept . AGAIN. i hate that.. always late for lec.. think i am realli lacking sleep.. must sleep earlier (seriously i tot i could live well wif just 4 to 5 hrs sleep like others.. but the recent lack of focus on work and interactions make me feel very disturbed and guilty.. somehow). So think will sleep pretty early like last sem.. when everyday i will have at least 7 hrs of sleep. And i dont take afternoon nap.. think that is why i am always so tired.. Slept thru my 2 hrs of social lec and waslate for maths lec.. now i am here , skipping my maths lec.. later still got econs 2 hrs lec.. dying here... zzz.... hope can get scroll of teleport to get home straight! also tome of intelligence to make me smarter.
Recently has been minding my personal stuffs and was thinking and reasoning with myself.. think i think too much and lead to very bad communication problems with frens.. cos keep guessing abt certain issues.. yesterday nite after thinking thru.. realised what i did was a little too much, irritating and disturbing my frens.. and they have been tolerating enuff.. so thanks and sorry abt that. i will drop the topics i am bothering abt when toking wif u all, ok? hope everything goes back to as before..
sigh has to go for my econs lec liao. very very very tired.. but thinking of this sat's bball .. i am energised again. Hmm.. yar that is all abt it.

29th of Feb

It is meant to be a joke. haha. i also written the wrong date. ok i am wondering what if 29th of Feb do exist in 2005? will it mean anything to us? Maybe not ba.. cos life still goes on as normal even if today is 50th of Feb 2005 , nobody would really care.
ok today met Soon Eng in the lec haha.. but today realli sat thru the lec and chatted and talked rubbish thruout the lec.. and i woke up late today .. again. was 45 mins late for the lec.. but i doesnt realli care much .. cos i dont wan to rush and this is one way to curb my anxious problem. haha. too serious for anything is not good..being able to relax is also good for studies too. this maybe can apply to relationships ba.. sometimes i blame myself for being a person who dont do what i say. not that i break promises.. but i sometimes realli kou bu zhe xin.it is my weakness.. not i am those flicker minded.. but i dont dare to express my view and idea fearing rejection and objections. then it appears that i say one thing but do another.
anyway met soon eng and we chatted over the lunch.. had a hearty laughing session just talking about my "encounters and incidents"in the army. haha. i am such a clown then.. but it is not that i am w/o dignity.. but in army when everyone is so bored and emotionally dependent on one another, i think that maybe i am a source of entertainment for them ba.. (blanket party, my dance moves, martial arts moves, during soccer etc.) but not i volunteer one... is that PS who forced me to do so..no choice.. rank low there wat.. anyway.. i didnt really lose much dignity.. just that my army frens will always remember those disgusting incidents and reminded me when i saw them. yucks.. haha... then today also got a SURPRISE maths quiz.. damn.. whole class stunned.. and we were given 2 Qs, and each of us is assigned to a number.. odd number do 1st and so on.. i got 9 and had to do the first Q. but i dont even know how to start lor... so handed in a blank ans sheet.. but i know how to do the second Q completely! but i was not allowed to attempt it . UNFAIR! but life is full of unfairness. today i saw those disabled buskers outside TM again.. always walk pass them.. sometimes do make donations.. but many times i dont.. today was in bad mood , so when i walked past them i donated to the 2 buskers. feel better after the donation.. maybe recently did a lot of bad things.. haha..(is ogling at gers consider bad?) no lar... just that i feel better cos i wan to spend $ to make myself happi.. so in a way the $ spent is more meaningful. i mean i donated and that is it.. but what abt them? they r still needing other people's help for their entire life.. so it is kind of nightmare for me if i were to be in their shoes. and so life is unfair. unfair in every way. the onli way to make it seems fair.. is to be able to be able to na de qi fang de xia. then life will be more joyful and optimism will bring abt light of hope. and i always find my frens able to take things easy.. esp jianzhong, CG, kiat, jia,huiyu,weixiang,meiying etc.. realli envy them. it is a gift i believe .. not a skill.. cos i seems to be not able to do so..despite numerous tries. and i dont wan to try to many times.. that will mean that i will have many disappointing stuffs.
This sat got bball! everyone gear up for that.. i am aiming to lose weight again.. hope that CNY team come again.. haha.. ok i fly my penguin to tell them now..