29th of Feb

It is meant to be a joke. haha. i also written the wrong date. ok i am wondering what if 29th of Feb do exist in 2005? will it mean anything to us? Maybe not ba.. cos life still goes on as normal even if today is 50th of Feb 2005 , nobody would really care.
ok today met Soon Eng in the lec haha.. but today realli sat thru the lec and chatted and talked rubbish thruout the lec.. and i woke up late today .. again. was 45 mins late for the lec.. but i doesnt realli care much .. cos i dont wan to rush and this is one way to curb my anxious problem. haha. too serious for anything is not good..being able to relax is also good for studies too. this maybe can apply to relationships ba.. sometimes i blame myself for being a person who dont do what i say. not that i break promises.. but i sometimes realli kou bu zhe xin.it is my weakness.. not i am those flicker minded.. but i dont dare to express my view and idea fearing rejection and objections. then it appears that i say one thing but do another.
anyway met soon eng and we chatted over the lunch.. had a hearty laughing session just talking about my "encounters and incidents"in the army. haha. i am such a clown then.. but it is not that i am w/o dignity.. but in army when everyone is so bored and emotionally dependent on one another, i think that maybe i am a source of entertainment for them ba.. (blanket party, my dance moves, martial arts moves, during soccer etc.) but not i volunteer one... is that PS who forced me to do so..no choice.. rank low there wat.. anyway.. i didnt really lose much dignity.. just that my army frens will always remember those disgusting incidents and reminded me when i saw them. yucks.. haha... then today also got a SURPRISE maths quiz.. damn.. whole class stunned.. and we were given 2 Qs, and each of us is assigned to a number.. odd number do 1st and so on.. i got 9 and had to do the first Q. but i dont even know how to start lor... so handed in a blank ans sheet.. but i know how to do the second Q completely! but i was not allowed to attempt it . UNFAIR! but life is full of unfairness. today i saw those disabled buskers outside TM again.. always walk pass them.. sometimes do make donations.. but many times i dont.. today was in bad mood , so when i walked past them i donated to the 2 buskers. feel better after the donation.. maybe recently did a lot of bad things.. haha..(is ogling at gers consider bad?) no lar... just that i feel better cos i wan to spend $ to make myself happi.. so in a way the $ spent is more meaningful. i mean i donated and that is it.. but what abt them? they r still needing other people's help for their entire life.. so it is kind of nightmare for me if i were to be in their shoes. and so life is unfair. unfair in every way. the onli way to make it seems fair.. is to be able to be able to na de qi fang de xia. then life will be more joyful and optimism will bring abt light of hope. and i always find my frens able to take things easy.. esp jianzhong, CG, kiat, jia,huiyu,weixiang,meiying etc.. realli envy them. it is a gift i believe .. not a skill.. cos i seems to be not able to do so..despite numerous tries. and i dont wan to try to many times.. that will mean that i will have many disappointing stuffs.
This sat got bball! everyone gear up for that.. i am aiming to lose weight again.. hope that CNY team come again.. haha.. ok i fly my penguin to tell them now..