Tiring Day

Hoho.. today finalli played the first bball game after so long. Fantastic.. cos i am feeling v tired now.. shall not elaborate.. cos it will be up in the bball gang ofiicial website.

then went to lib to study. And surprise! Met Yong Fa. Long time no see sia.. think had been 1 yr or so.. he is my BMT platoon mate. Good to see him, so chatted with him while he waited for his bus. And surprise surprise, met YongLing with her sister in the lib. She is always v smiley whenever i met her, think that is a positive attitude towards life. And HK, JT and CG came to join me and waited for me to end my readings to go for dinner. Thanks guys! Then walk ard TM and CS and chatted a lot.. Great to slack ard with them.. no doubt, felt best with them ard.

And Man U lost to Chelsea.. and kanna thrashed.. sigh.. too bad la.. actualli i dun support both team.. just dun like Chelsea lah..

Let us adopt the spirit of Boro!

After knowing about the astonishing result from the UEFA semi-final match between Boro and Steaua Bucharest, most will think that Boro may well win the Cup. Just like Arsenal, with the mental strength and belief , they have reached the finals respectively. So, maybe their shear determinations may eventualli outclass their respective opponents. I predict a 1-0 win for Arsenal. And a 2-1 win for Boro over Sevilla. Let's see. Most prob punters may think otherwise la... hahaa.. mine is just a little biased.. i am a supporter of the Gunners, and also those who worked themselves back from seemingly impossible situations to clinch wins.. admired Boro's determination to fight back from 3-0 down in the last 2 matches to win 4-3. Esp the recent match.. left with less than an hr to get 4 goals. 15 mins for a goal? Seems like a vertical cliff to climb huh.

Ok, gonna go study..T_T.. and the grd works beneath my blk is deafening.. wakes me up again.. of cos going out to study la.. haha

Almost

Almost.. almost fall into a state of depression this morning.. the moment i woke up.. i have been thinking negatively.. very confused tots.. making my morning studies unfocussed. in the end, the stress is pushing me to the brink of depression. I was one foot in... and i knew that if i felt depressed.. my exam in 3-4 hrs time will be a goner.. so i stopped my studying and logged on msn.. no one to talk to.. so sad..then luckily zj came online then.. and we chatted.. but that depression feeling just keep coming at me. In the end, decided to stop studying and go out for a stroll to mrt station. Though short.. but that stroll is my life saver.. i finalli feel the sun on my skin! The gloominess dissipated and left me with not so much stress.. After which, reached Wilson's car.. and decided to call HK out for a walk after paper.. but he couldnt make it.. so in the end asked Wilson if i could join him with Rachael. Luckily he said ok, else i feel so sian lor..

Then the paper was quite smooth sailing.. i struggled a bit with my still depressed feeling.. but relatively, it was quite smooth sailing. Then after paper, met Kimberly.. and she happened to be going to National Lib.. and we r heading to suntec.. so she took a ride in Wilson's car. Then sth funny happened.. I sat at the back seat with Kim on my right(i am in the centre) and Kim's fren is also taking a ride from wilson, but need to fetch her at Can A. And when we arrived at the can A bus stop, Kim said her fren is there.. and when i looked out.. i saw a huge girl stood up and walking towards our direction. WAHHHH.. i immediately squeezed and packed Kim into the corner of the car.. i afraid even then also no space for that fren.. haha.. and the normally calm wilson was stunned for a moment too. Then i closed my eyes for a while.. scared of facing the fren. I turn back and looked at her.. eh... how come she shrinked? hmmm.. she was wearing pink just now ma.. and yah.. she is still in pink.. but why is she now so petite? Then i realised that the fren is not that huge ger..... though they r wearing the same color blouse.. and the huge ger happened to be kim's fren too.. sorry to the huge ger. i was mean.sorry.

Then we arrived at Suntec.. kim asked me to join she and her frens.. cos she said i am like a lightbulb.. but i dun wan wAHAHAHA.. insisting of being a lightbulb. so in the end stuck with the couple for dinner at a nice restaurant(yummy fish and chips... it is the one oppo candy palace) and did some strolling ard the air coned mall.. after which i make my way home alone..

Then chatted with mum just now.. my mum realised that i became depressed so easily recently cos i rarely talk to any people , not talk abt superficial stuffs.... but i didnt express my feelings, in a sense didnt talk my heart out la.. cos i was all the while studying and facing books or come back facing msn(where nobody is online to chat). so i became quite isolated for ard 2 weeks.. though i did have companions while studying, but that is different.. we rarely talk deep enuff ma.. and so.. i also dun know la.. this is the worse sem. Have depression for so many times.. damn.. why am i becoming mentally so weak.. i tot i am strong in this area? i tot i can endure and perservere. but i am wrong.. i over estimated myself and keep pushing my self. Dunno why.. i cant stop forcing myself to achieve more..

Today

Well, 2 papers r over.. Today's paper is realli the toughest of this module in these few semesters. As compared to other sems, this paper is way to abstract. Tell u.. everyone come out in disbelief! How can Euler dun come out? It is a quite confirm to come out question.. but it didnt come out... sigh.. But it is 0ver le.. i have decided to practise not to brood over the papers i had done for this sem's exam.. haha. so far for yesterday's paper, i brood over it for ard 3-4 hrs while doing revision.. but i think if i can tell myself not to think abt the past paper.. and i did it today! .. only brood for ard 1 hr . now just going for fri's paper.. hmmm, hope everything turns out fine..

I wan to sing ktv.. and to play bball! Damn bored... read comics recently while studying. kind of lessen the pressure... It is strange to feel very much less stressed once the exam starts... and i like this feeling more than the preparartion period.. Looking forward to this weekend.. can take a small break... hmm, well, also, May 1st is coming soon! Haha, our govt money r coming soon=) and, decided to spend some of it to get myself a present.. since long time i have buy myself expensive things..( except the specs la..)

Study hard! ALL THE STUDENTS!

Counting the days..

Exam periods r stressful. 1) Cos need to do tons of work everyday... u cant rest! 2) U will be thinking abt what to do or what u wan to do, but u cant do them! 3) stress come from pressure and target set by self 4) u will most prob be alone.. and so u start to think a lot.. and then, u will get sad... cos we humans, normally think in the pessimistic direction. 5) when u r alone... u will feel alienated.. somehow cut off from society.. feel so abandoned from reality.. and embraced into the world of calculus and physics, which u cant relate to!

These few days.. revision is snail slow.. the stressed up period is over.. the wait is too long... though i am not fully prepared... but i WANT THE EXAM TO START.... hmmm... But i feel kind of thankful while i was doing revision, i have got frens who i can approach when i feel damn sian/stress/restless/lonely. Recently got hooked up onto a comics abt this little dog which is a stray dog.. and the story plot is simple, yet touches the heart.. i like it.. and the dog is very cute. Hmm, looks like a cat more than a dog though.. but it is a puppy.

Anyway, before i end, will like to say" Thanks so much, all my frens.."

A cause for celebration

Ok, aside from the workload and exams.. the bball blog is finalli up! We have all the lastest update on all the game plays and latest and hottest infos and gossips within the grp... all in the official webblog! Well, that stupid forum is a deadcity like Zu's blog... but this blog is always on the roll.. why? cos hor.. as long as we r playing bball, there will be updates! so.. guys.. keep track of our activities from that official website.

Ok, back to reality.. today studied in lib alone. cos in case need some ref bks , so might as well stay there to study. And tot YongLing will be there, i met her yesterday and she said she will be coming down. But then she didnt turn up today. So was alone there. Luckily met Adam in the lib though.. but he left v soon after i arrived. and the lib is cold.. my layers of fats also cant insulate well... and studied till 9pm. so bored.. dun wish to go home, so went to mac to find mansze. intend to slack there.. but end up studying again.. the guilt came when i slack..

Arghh.. no life days.. I DUN like iT!! CANT play bball with the rest on fri!!!!!!!! and what!??heard that it is GOOD FRIDAY! supposed to be GOOD... i hope it is at least passable though. i had problem with life almost everyday.. cos life simply dulls me with monotonous schedule.
And my impetuous action today led me to buy an Extra Value Meal today. first time tried Fantastic.. hmm,the rice is ok.. and the lettuce is nice.. too little though.. the chicken patty is good! Hmm, feels full after the burger.. so had to take away the rest..

Now i wan to scream out.. hope after the scream, i will feel better. learn from misty..

" ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS DULLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL PERIOD OF HAVING EXAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Basketball gang rulz!

Yeah. finalli get to play bball once more.. today played a bit with others, lost to 1-7 and gang, they played realli well. and later we played all the way with Uncles' team.. today i was v v rough, i realli banged into those 1.8+ huge men during the game for a lot of occasions..then even flung my weight on Tank 1 in an occasion when he broke free of our defence and he layed up.. but i being too rough, knocked him onto the ground.. but his temper is real good.. he didnt even grumbled for once.. but i knew he was realli very unhappy with the way i played.but nevertheless, we improved towards the end, despite losing a few games in a row to them. The last game was our best.. losing 4-7 in one time, we catched up to 9-7 and promptly ended it with 11-8. Hmm, was in high spirit then! Cos we managed to overturn the deficit like how Boro did that 4-3 win over Basel! With our bodies tired and tactically running out of strategy plays. That is real fun! Though i displeased the uncles with a lot of knocks in them, but hey! they did elbowed us too! also v rough la. I got a blow near the eye by Tank 1... and he didnt realised that.. so i guessed it is fair in the end.

Well, time to study once more.. no time to waste..tata!

A day so .... full of hiccups

Now, what i experienced most isnt stress... but is hiccups! Up to 5th time i am experiencing it today! Yesterday is just twice or so.. sucks... and i needed Mantou to guide me in how to cure hiccups.. That is pretty embarrassing. Well, hiccups r not that bad... at least it tells me that HEy! i am still alive...

today had a quiz on geotech. last quiz for this sem.. but the lazy me refused to study a set of notes which i deemed redundent... and guess wat!? The notes r tested in that quiz! Damn!
I read the entire chapter in the T/B and the tutorials.. and yet i couldnt score! cos of the refusal to read a set of seemingly unuseful notes.. bah.. sian, but what is over is over.. and we got back our 1st quiz.. i passed with 11.5 out of 20. U think it is bad? the av i heard is ard 5-7 out of 20... wah... that killer quiz... sianz... But i guess that this mod is named a killer module not without a valid reason.. the tutors r out to slaughter we students...

HAhaa! and tonight we shall witness Arsenal v Juv... and see how the match turns out to be.. though i will be with Mr Zhou Gong...
Hope ARS wins over JUV!

"The best way to solve a dilenma is to spin a penny. Yet, it is not so that chance shall decide while you are passively standing, but the moment the penny is up in the air, you suddenly know what you have been hoping for."

The above is lifted from WeiChun's Msn nick. It intrigued me.

Anyway, i have got special sem's mod! It is a PE on astronomy. Yang shan, huamin,YuJing and the rest also got it(i heard) but they r deciding shld they take it during the intersem.. hmmm if they r taking, then i will be v glad, cos will not need to go alone for the lessons. And yeah, i have got a B+ for CE test! I consider it to be above av, though i will never be satisfy with the result.

Summer comes only after winter

Yeah.. everything is cleared! Nothing to worry except for a visit tomolo, my wed quiz, and exams! Yea! haha. Also glad govt bonus is coming my way too! ANd for the april's fool stuff.. i am the real fool in the end, cos my fren bluffed me.. she pretended to be angry for a few days.. ... i tot she is PMSing -_-

ok, today's morning quiz is kind of hard.. but i am contended with it.. cos it is really tough beyond my ability to solve completely within the half an hr. And also today is a good day!... cos i replaced my irritating one sided-functioning ear phone finally.

Hope this good feeling can carry on and on till the day i die..

I didnt mean it

April's fool. arghh.. i didnt get fooled. This is the very few occasion i go fool others on the 1st of April. Think it is quite bad to fool others, so just fool a few of them whom i think can take it.. and my jokes r rather tame. I couldnt think of any instance in which my joke can make someone soooooo agitated. But then, things which r out of my expectation do happen. and then now, this fren of mine tot i am trying to make her seem like a fool.. and decided to give me warnings...i am rather disturbed by this, cos it is a v short joke, and i intend to stop it within 15 mins. and it doesnt relate to unacceptable stuffs. Just that the timing is not right. Think she was v tired.. and of cos i dun know.. and tada! That is it. Hope she can see it from my viewpt.

Ok, back to happier stuffs. Today went studying with Andy again. And, make a new fren whom happened to be Andy's camp mate and ex-TPJCian one yr our junior. Not bad, he is in NTU common engineering. I didnt knew he was from NTU, till he said hi to me and said he saw me lotsa time in LWN lib.. i didnt go there often though.. always in lib 2 more. And saw Yong Ling there too, and went to say hi to her too. But these days, my endurance for studying dropped a lot. Tsk tsk. that is not too optimistic when exams r ard the corner.

anyway, read this month's focus. Think this issue is pretty exciting. cos got a lot of realli interesting stuffs to catch. I strongly recommend this mag, ever since i first read it dunno one plus yr ago. so, remember to visit the lib if u r free to read up this mag. It is really a good relaxation for our tired minds too=)