LOOK HERE

Yes, here. U! yes.. u came at the wrong time! when i am suppose to pick up in my studies.. and now, u invaded me! Where r my privacy? Hmm, maybe u self destruct? Hmmm, pls pls quickly leave me.. i am not ur best lover, ahhahaaz.

Bloody flu virus.

Been always doubting my characters.. cos i am at times too stubborn and yet on another hand i feel myself changing with surrounding too fast at times too, not stead fast enough..
Feeling lousy yet couldnt sound out.. swallow all those self-pitiness into myself.

If i can have a choice, i will never relive my life like this again.

Saturdae

Ahahhaz. Went late for bball today, but then the court is still being booked, so in the end still got time to prepare a while, before the players who booked the court go off at 11am.Anyway, today had a very irritating incident. Played a game with some teenagers, but one of them is a short-fused temper brat. Keep elbowing people and accusing us for doubling, when he himself is the biased judge. He turned violent and tot we were good to bully. But of cos, we reacted the smart way which he cant possibly think of, given his limited IQ . We trashed talked .. and even laughed at his misses.. in the end we won, but were not happy. Cos that spoiler is not playing bball.. he aimed to wreck us instead of gg for the ball. Then we switched to the other side to play with 1-7 and his frens.. 1-7 is v v v v skillful.. and realised he isnt in any team yet. we played 7 matches. Won 3 and lost 4. But the 3 won r all coming from behind one..(eg: 5-1 at first and then won with 6-7) but those games we lost r pretty close... 7-6, 11-10... so hor.. we arent too far in skill, though 1-7 is madness.. he can spilt the defense with such speed.. wonder how he trained to have such swiftness...

Woohooo.. back . tonight is kind of special, last minute met up with hanlip, cg, Hk, weibin, aliang and andy for makan. then we all stroll ard before heading home. nice to have them ard=)

And had a very funny happening.. we were heading for toilet at a pt of time.. and i was first in, and decided to try something funny.. haha. i wanna scare one or 2 of them by hiding behind the wall in the toilet and scare them when they r coming in.. i knew andy is coming in first, so i didnt jump out when he enters.. then the second person came in.. and i decided not to scare him, and it turns out to be weibin.. then i decided to scare the 3rd one.. dunno why, gut feeling lar.. then when i see the shadow casted on the other wall becoming darker, i knew the person is near the door.. so i just jumped out and shouted "bleah!" and who knows.. when i looked at the person, i feel weird.. cos he doesnt seem like any of us! then i realised that he is an outsider! And he was stunned for like a while?! haha then he was slightly amused too.! ahahha! then came in hanlip and the rest , cos they happened to be looking at a window display poster, so came in later.. I AM SO PAISEH!! omg... so diu lian.

Tired week over. Next tired week is coming

Today marks the end of week 11. Stayed back to edit some tech comm stuffs. Saved it in the sch comp and when me and wilson wan to send it to the server, we realised that the SAVED file disappeared from the computer! damn. so we need to re edit the bloody stuffs.. in the end we used 3 hrs till ard 8pm to finish and handed in to Mrs Li at 8..... slipped the hardcopy under her office since she was not ard then.

Tml got bball. and i am gg. need to exercise, since i didnt run for 5 days liao.... ahahhaz..

Mission Possible

Tests and tests.. Today had a test today. Think i got the ans correct =)
But these days were tiring. Sunday slept late and woke up early for monday. Yesterday studied till late in sch with Mansze and thus slept late. and woke up early today. Now sleeping late to do tech comm stuffs. And the mosquitoes just cannot let me off... damn.. cos of the school beside my blk is being torn down, so nowadays got a lot of suckers ard me.. blood suckers..
The mission is to avoid them. How? Dunno.... just endure for few years before the new building is up ba... hahahahaz.... think i will be slimmed by then.. all blood kanna sucked away by these little things

Tired night

Yesterday had a stressful time. So went running before continue studying. slept late and woke early for studying today's test. though i had studied the notes 3 weeks ago, but i am not familiar with them after 3 weeks.. old liao.. short term memory. So in the end read till become a little feverish, so slept in Wilson's car while he steered me to sch.. hmm, in the end still didnt manage to study finish the notes, but luckily onli 1 qns out of 50 came out from the unfinished topic. So got 49 pts to score still hahahaha.

Came home, wanted to run initially. But felt lazy.. so maybe tmr shall play badminton in sch.. see how..

I dreamt of my blog being hacked by a hacker. And he was meddling with the blogs of my other frens.. haha , but well i was not that unhappy.. it proved my blog is worth something. And well, today tot was gg to be a good day, turn out to be ok.. wasted 2 hrs doing a stupid mindmap.. which i did a lousy job, too much info dumped into it liao.. shld just keep it simple. Never mind.. try again next time. And was with Andy today for studying and after which went jalan jalan. Hmm, and realised i am a person who thinks too deep into words. Also one who thinks too much. Some thing r best left with a single impression. Repeatedly thinking of it will not do any good in any way.

And on the way, saw army's edmund and saw huiyu too! so qiao.. cos she stayed in Hougang.. came all the way to Tampines to shop. But didnt even chat with her. cos TM is simply too crowded, had to move on due to pushing from behind.

Well, later gonna run a night run.. yeah. shld be quite nice=) though nobody accompanying me..see if bro will be back early and run with me.. hmmm, to be exact. today's mood is bad.. cos of pressure from test on monday. Shitty test. Just a quiz, and it covered the whole mod's materials. Just like studying for an exam. sucks SUCKS...

AARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SHITTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Food in canteen

The food in canteen.. hmmm.. feels so limited with choices... hmmm.. not becos there isnt many stalls.. but simply, when it is time for lunch, onli a few stalls could attend the their long queue quick enough. Been eating jap food for like nearly a week? Wanted to vomit out all the Unagi... think the cutlets r also another food that i always take.

hmm..today was rather an ok day. felt blessed that my day went smooth and easy. Though i was v late and so i pon my first lesson this sem. But still got to copy the stuffs from Shaoqi. This guy is damn good, good to have him as fren in CEE. After which went for the tutorial, where i think i scare the tutor when i keep insisting my method is correct. Haha, but HEY! I am right lei.. and i did my tutorial! Even Swee Hong see liao also scared of me..

Break time. went to get a seat ard the LTs and Yang Shan came along, and we finally have a first ever non-lame conversation. Then came Val, Huamin and yujing, and all became chaotic with a lot of codes to be deciphered. All of us r caught up with Da Vinci's Codes.

And the later part of the day i cant remember much, cos i am v sleepy. Slept during the lecture.. for ard 5 mins?

And due to unforseen circumstences, there is a sudden badminton session. Yang Shang, her pro cousin and brother were there. They r all not bad lor. Esp, the cousin, think he is quite good. haha. and i sustained a lot of injuries.. twisted my foot, kanna hit by Yang Shan , and dunno how fell down.. clumsy me. But overall, a relaxing session still.

RUN!

ANd so. to relieve the stress.. i went running with bro after he returned from work. Wat a run! Shiok! Can say it is one of the best run i ever ran leisurely. We ran from Tamp to White Sands. And from there, we took a wrong route.. and so travelled some distance before we started running again. ANd then, we sang the army songs.. OLD DAYS R BACK! but we onli rem 2 songs.. so keep repeating! ANd i shouted out just like in army runs.. hahaz,cos that route is v ulu. YEAH! AND BRO IS spontaneous.

ANd we walked back and chatted.. good sia.. like that feeling. so nice.=)

BAck to Normal!

Life is back to normal! Yeah! Hmm, wan to play badminton now, but dunno can get who.. think it will just be a wish then. Got my debit card today! finalli sia! And took the pictures of AE86 parked in sch today. Cool!! Secretly though..

Depression

Actualli today isnt a sian day. But i have got a realli bad depression today. This is one of the few times i felt so helpless and dejected. It is due to me thinking too much into things and also stress.
And my world just crashed on me today..thru out the day didnt talk much at all.. even came home just do work and take some nap.. felt very gloomy. very sad, but i knew i can pull through. now slightly better. Sometimes city life is realli too fast-paced. also too much pressure. i cant breathe at all, sometimes.
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Cant sleep! damn.. believe i slept too much in evening and before i slept just now, did that intensive tut.. that is why now mind is v active. luckily tmr is a slack day... sucky life la..

SIan Day

What a day. Woke up and went to sch. Then break, where i attempted a tut which i couldnt solve.. and then a lecture.. after which took Yang Shan's ride home. So tired for the whole of today. No mood to talk.. feel like dying..

Neck pain

Having a bad neck pain..cant turn head as normal after bball today.. ouch!
Today's bball onli saw CG HK and Matkool.. And bedok cc and fengshan cc r occupied.. in the end played a game with 1-7 they all. damn.. they r really good.. Lost the game though we lead in first place. But as CG said.. play a relaxed game ma.. so dun bother abt win or lose.. ya , i am out there to exercise too.. And played in Mario land for a while.. hope nobody sees us 23-yr-old jump ard like kids.. think got la.. but dun care..

Then we 'sneaked' into Sniper's condo.. and kanna caught by the security.. but in the end nothing.. hahaz. we went to his condo to use the pool's bathroom for shower.. intend to sneak out after the bath.. then suay enuff to get caught. And ya after which, CG Matkool and HK went to Expo for book fair thing. I went to airport for studying. Well, not bad today. 4 hrs and i did something at least. And before i left the airport.. there was a damn funny thing happening.
I heard a shout.. and after that i realised a lot of people r gathering ard the coffee bean store..cos one guy sitting there just shouted. And he was shouting like a mad man.. think he is kind of dumb. Maybe he is in the right.. but the way he seek for justice is certainly making him looked like the wrong party. He shouted VERY loud that a coffee bean crew was STARING at him. Fish la.. small thing like this also make such a big fuss like a small kid. spoil our singaporeans' image.. i saw foreigners laughing. damn xia suay. and i dun wan to be a nosy poker to stay ard to wait for the ending, so i just walked off.. SO NO ENDING To THIS EPIsode..
I think the ending is tat he will either gid the guy's eyes out , or he will kanna blacklist by airport.

Then before i came home, bought a Ramly burger. first time ate that.. heard it is good.. BUT IT IS not so good.. ok onli.. cos DUN HAVE LETTUCE! Comeon la.. lettuce is the MOST MOST IMPT stuff! No lettuce? Not a balance diet man.. alamak.. and think the store owners r very rude. SUCKS! and he is somehow a cheater. He asked me if i wan special burger(which includes egg+cheese) and i dunno special burger includes egg and cheese beforehand, and i said i wan normal burger. And he asked me again: want egg is it? I tot it is a choice.. so i just said ok.. and that means he is asking me if i wan special burger again right? CHEATER! .. fish la.. i dun wan to buy from that store anymore. Where is their Fu Wu DNA?

Stupid neck pain.. think i gonna BE irritated for a few days cos of the damn damn pain. PAIN IN THE NECK!

WHy is the weekends becoming so boring?

that is it.. after Kester returned to Aus, our bball team also met up lesser liao.. luckily tml will be playing bball at Bedok CC. But then, the sad fact is that there will be a pathetic 5 of us.. including long lost JC bball fren, Alvin, who is making a comeback. After which, shall see where shld i go to study. Cant go to beach this weekend.. cos got so many stuffs to do. No mood at all to go.. SIGH. But i will be staying happy! else life will be boring and depression will set in. Happy , how? No need reason! Keep a light mood. I can do it. I am sure.

Today was a sian day. Realli sian.. sian till i wan to complain.. WHY IS STUDYING SUCH A CHORE?

Sometimes, u wonder is army realli that bad? Hmmm.. i cant say that army times r totally bad. It has its good. And one of the good is that in army, there is no homework! and exams! siao bo... exams r frightening... just like taking injections... ok, i am phobic of needles..

and just to raise an issue here which is discussed during a short chat with a fren. Are love which isnt perfect acceptable to women? Eg: A man is married with a wife, but his wife is not his most-loved woman. Maybe his most loved is married or for whatever reason, not with him.. but he must still continue with his life and start a family ... so he had gotten this wife. And he did love her. But not as deep as he loved another woman whom he will never ever be in contact with again. So how? Self proclaimed love experts out there, any comments? Is he wrong to marry his present wife? Is he selfish? But consider if the wife is ignorant of his love for another woman, she will still be a happy woman after all..

Badminton

Today is a slack day.. hahaz. Went to sch for tut at 830. And then thru out the train trip had to stand up all the while..after the last lesson, went to hall 10 to play badminton with Yang Shan, Shaoqi and Chiew Lin. Very good workout for me.. since i had not been working out for 2 weeks.

Haha. Been hoping to go beach.. so maybe will be going at weekend.

Happy birthday to 3 people: 1) Hang Kuang-28th of Feb 2) Benny 3rd of Mar and 3) Huamin 4th of Mar

So many bdae people.. hahaz. but it is good! cos got celebration for some of them.. and can have fun.. today is a long and tiring day.. morning took Yang Shan's car.. and i was late.. so had to run.. so mad! i ran so slowly ... maybe cos of the heavy bag..
and the day was hectic yet slacked..u all know what i mean..a lot of lessons.. and a lot of breaks..making the day seemed very long, ending at 430pm.
After which, rushed back to Tampines, where we r gonna celebrate Huamin's 21st birthday for her. Got sooo much excitment trying to avoid her in work of the "surprise" plan..
hahaz. and we all went in search of cake and card for her trying to avoid Huamin and mastermind, Yang Shan. Not bad, at least the surprise is a pleasant one. Had a meal at Han's and cut the cake there. Man sze almost scared me before we left cos she laughed till she got cramp after i gave her a "dose" of the ring tone to listen today.. tot need to give her first aid.. hahaz!
No bball tomolo, sad.. now a lot of mosquitoes biting me.. sad.. and wat.. many work left undone.. sad. But i will face the days with positive thinkings! as i told Lena.. must think +!!

Tots

I have a disturbing tot gg on in mind... and i knew i have the answer all the while, but i keep trying to find ways to counter that answer, although that answer is the onli answer which i will ever accept. Funny right? Now and for ever, i accept that answer to that question in mind. A relief indeed!

Haha, today went to sch.. and almost lost a finger in sch!hahaz.. cos, while doing this expt.. a guy using the hydraulic jack pushed the handle the other way, instead of releasing the pressure, when i told him that we finger is inside.. and he went all the way... almost cutting off my index finger.. damn.. luckily everything is fine now.. else, he will be kanna blamed for sure!

Anyway, having another dilenma.. not sure to treat certain people with complete trust or not.. cos i am scared of being backstabbed.. though i shld not think so negatively.. but i just have this worry.... cant seem to trust them totally.. and i hate to have such feeling..

Just watched a channel 8 show.. and that show realli is very meaningful..it depicted a beggar talking abt the various reasons behind people who gave charitable money.. so true... i am in one of the categories -- who gave money so that i will feel that i am a good person. may not be a true blue real good person afterall..

HAhaz.. tomolo will have 2 tuts.. so sianz... waiting for weekend to arrive!

Bloody train delay

Encountered a very bad ride to sch today..the train reached Kembangan at ard 730am.. but it reached Raffles place at ard 8 +am.. due to track fault. what the... makes me so flared up.. i first time so early going for lecture.. and yet.. sigh. predestined to be late..