These few days were getting kind of stressed.. with more work and projects. and recently cut down on dota games too. and i can see that the action yielded pretty positive result. also bought some new books at a super low price! have been reading a lot lately.

today ended pretty early and i went home tog with yujing. and on the way back, on the train, there is this little girl who leaned on my arm and slept thru out her journey. haha, i didnt even dare to cough a bit, so nt to wake this peacefully sleeping kid. felt like she's my daugther! lol.

well, lately had nthing much to update though.. hopefully i can rem sth to blog here in the coming days.

Phone call

Received a half-unexpected phone call from Nina today. Actually, she is leaving the company tml, so i expected she will call me to talk.. as i can predict she will feel terribly sad leaving the dept. And so, we started chatting as if we had just met yesterday.. talking abt the ppl in company.. the good memories soon flooded our minds. A lot of catching ups were done too. I am actually very pleased that she still remembers to call me when she is leaving the company. cos she said she will call her assistant on the last day. and a few days back, Liang Hong (a poly IA student) msn-ed me, asking me if he could go back to the dept for part time work.. i am v glad to hear that.. it means that the dept meant sth to him.. though he is with our dept for only a month. I said Chee Yong will be v glad to hear that from him. and i was right! Nina said he called back a few days ago to request gg back.. and CY was quite joyous to hear it from him. And nina still reminded me of her 21st bdae present.. haha , which is due in another 2 months 4 days. ok la, will save up a bit to give her a nice present lol. and as usual, gossips of everyone and talks abt Frankestein remained our most enjoyable topics .. though we know it is nt gd to talk behind ppl's back.

So much time together during work, and we both didnt admit that each other r good working companion.. till after we departed from each other's daily functioning social circle. She said that she must admit tt i am a good fren, haha , cos i tolerate her bad temper for 7 months. I feel v touched at that moment.. i tot she nv realise i am giving in to her all the while , cos she is just a kid after all.. lol.. but thanks god lol.

Hmm, back to school nowadays.. and as usual.. seeing a lot of frens everywhere. but somehow i dun feel like talking these days.. some of them i just say hi and bye.. and walk off.. for some, i simply walk past them without acknowledging them. but I guess, i will also miss NTU after i grad. cos it is really a very nice place to be with frens and to learn.

just chatted with a fren.. wooosh.. nt tt she purposely said sth which made me feel v guilty, just tt i am holding back sth .. and by nt saying out, i felt tt i was being nt truthful (cos our frenship is built on frankness and occasionally crappiness) . Sth which i would only like myself to know. To no other ppl will i like to tell. and i felt tt she didnt see the real side of me, by not knowing abt this particular condition of mine. i am with a v heavy heart now.. not her fault, i say, just tt i feel super vexed and confused.. full of self blame.
But i shall nt sink further into this mental turmoil, cos this is definitely nt the solution out of the trouble. i would need to face the days after this particular moment with hope, i guess i will see the light, i am quite sure.

Last Moment

Today officially is my last day at work. Kind of she bu de the dept's frens. Will miss them a lot, cos the time spent with them is enjoyable and the harmonious bunch of lunch kakis r nice ppl. Overall, i received many gifts from them. got a t-shirt from the whole dept, chocolates from RF and auntie from pavement dept. got a digital photo frame from nina and also the best wishes from them. shumei treated me good today.. didnt suan or scold me at all.. felt so weird.. but was happy then la.. and JA finally lent me things after the incident.

the guys didnt say much or did much more than how they usually treat me. and oh ya, i remembered hw nina told me b4 i left: u ah.. must grow up ok (she's only 20 tis yr.. say till like my mum) and dun go out and do what u did in the office (which r mostly jokes that they will remember for lifetime) and hor.. must remember me, get married must invite me hor (she is yearning to get married to her bf asap .. tt is why she keeps tinking of getting married and stuffs) whao.. felt a bit emotional when i left -- when nina jokingly said dun cry lol.. reminded me of aileen's last day at work..

wan to thanks everyone at the dept. really appreciate them. will have chance to meet up. hopefully everyone still remembers each other by then.

at the gate, met IT's 2 colleagues.. first time talked to them.. and perhaps it is the last time. anyway nice to break the ice before leaving. talked abt army stuffs and company stuffs.. didnt realised a chat that is made in the last day can be so easily strike up.. regretted that i didnt talk to them when i saw them last times... that is human.. always cherish the last moment and nt the process. but looking in another perspective, at least we caught the last glimpse of heart warming gestures from these ppl. bu4 wang3 chi3 sheng1.

met up after work with kids world ppl (sioux mixed mickey). they before meeting me went to watch The Simpsons.. and we met up for dinner.. after which, the remaining guys went to play dota and also arcade games, before gg to get a quick bite for supper. cool.. i like today.. really.. maybe i felt more like a human since today is full of emotionally charged moments. the recent months i felt as if i am numb from all type of feelings..

ok.. school term soon ... haiz..... everyone take care! and see ya soon !