SELF-DEPRECIATION ENTRY.

Fan AH!!! WHY MUST THINGS BE SO RUSHED?? why id Is so tough and i am the bloody leader but have not much idea of how to lead them on!? really felt lost, regretted that last time i didnt put in more effort..I feel so sucky@!@ really a damn useless leader. fucked up.

DAMN.. now i know why certain ppl made certain judgement.. is nt that they r picky, is just that i am not competent. maybe i can achieve thru sheer effort, i really cant achieve when it comes to intellectual, and less said abt being sure of my capabilities.